Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 14 When the Time is Right!

Jane just rolled her bright green eyes at me as if she found my glare boring instead of scary like most people usually do. It annoyed the hell out of me most of the time, but it was also one of the things that I liked about her. Seth just smiled at her and kept his icy pale blue eyes on her lovingly as if not really paying attention to me, usually I'd rather have that then his happy talk. But not today. Today it just annoyed me even more, thinking about me being just as whipped with Rachel as he was with Jane.

I did not want to be a love sick puppy willing to do anything to please their master. I am just not going to end up like that. No matter if the imprint apparently gives me no choice, there is no way that I will let myself go and be that pathetic. Just isn't going to happen no matter if people think different. I will not do that!

"Paul" Seth warned looking at my arms. They were begging to shake like crazy as a warning I needed to calm myself down. I really did not want to phase right now. I needed to think on my own without having all the pack's view. I closed my eyes to help me try to think of what Jane told me many weeks ago, when I reluctantly admitted to only her, that I was trying to keep control of my anger better by calming down.

"You have had so much stress in your life, it's become normal. You've become used to it. You have to just relax, calm down, take a deep breath and try to see how you can make things work rather than complain or get mad and frustrated about how they're wrong." she said. After she thought about it. Than added before I could say anything "I know it's easier said than done, but just think about what your angry about and give this a shot"

I kept my eyes closed to help me feel more privacy and breathed in and out slowly. Well I'm not going to be pathetic, that's for sure. I will stay myself and I won't be brain washed like all the others. I had to repeat this for ages as whenever I did start to try and think calm thoughts she would pop in to my head and make me mad all over again, until I eventually and I will say incredibly slowly, started to calm down .

I opened my eyes which felt like decades later to see that my hands hadn't stopped shaking. Seth was looking at me warily as if unsure that I wouldn't suddenly lose it. Jane was smiling as always like she was not worried that I would most probably blow in a minute or too like I usually do, as if she had faith in me.

"Paul, you good" Sam asked form the corner with worry probably for Jane safety. I had not seen him come in, probably because my eyes were shut in focus and for the little piece of privacy I could get.

"Yeah" I said confidently and arrogantly with my guard up he gave me a surprised small smile obviously shocked in the fact that I had calmed down enough that I didn't need to go outside. He gave me a cautious look before, he finally accepted the fact and when back in the kitchen. I gave Jane a half smile that was more of a half smirk, before I looked away not able to look at her because of her sickening smile that never left her face. When I did I saw the little worry look on her face as she figured out everything wasn't fine, since I had never been able to calm myself down that fast without smirking cockily and hugely even if it was over a little situation, as for me that was a huge achievement from what I always used to be like.

The front door was pushed open with a bang, I didn't flitch since this would happen daily as most of the pack piled in. I got up off my seat with my hands still madly shaking and moved in the direction of the back door, not in the mood to talk to anyone a specially not the guys who had imprinted . As I'm sure it wouldn't be long before their imprints were mentioned and headed into the forest at a run to where I normally went in times like this. Where I needed to think and fully calm myself down.

I breathed a sign of relief when my spot came into view, not long with my super speed. The spot was an even circle space with trees all around the outside. There were a few stomps where trees had once stood beautifully , as they were and appeared to be a good place to sit. I loved this space especially in the summer, where sunlight would come through the little space between the trees and heat up the ground. I had come here even before I became a werewolf, as it had always been my comforting spot .