The Distance Between Us

CHAPTER ONE

A part of me felt incomplete. "He's no longer here", I thought. I should have been happy about it, but I wasn't.

It took me a lot of time to come to this decision. Leaving him. I thought I could have never done it. Until my love for him put him in danger.

I was an angel, I wasn't capable of loving anyone. At least those were the orders given to me. I still question to why I fell for a human. For him. But it's all meaningless. I can't love him.
I shouldn't love him.

I walked hurriedly past him this morning. I could see his tear-stained cheeks and puffed eyes. I could see him hurting because of me.

I felt utterly horrible to have done this to someone I love. But the fear that I contain overpowers my love.

I told myself that this was for the better. I'm only doing this to protect him. I'm a danger to his life. He deserves much better than me. He still can be happy.

And since then I've made it my mission to find him someone else to love and care for. I needed him to be able to live without me.

I was hurting too. As much as I didn't want to do this, I had to. I forced my feelings to die down. But the memory plays in my head, and I return to this bitter feeling of misery.

I could remember how he used to splatter kisses on my face. His fingers as it trailed down the locks of my brown hair. His eyes that always gave me comfort. And his smile that still, and probably forever will, make my heart race like a nervous child.

At the moment, all I could do was wait. It was boring, of course. I lived the life of a 'Homo sapien' and quite enjoyed the casual excitement of nothing and everything.

Now that I've returned to my true self, I felt empty. I had no feelings of happiness nor sadness. Except for the lingering feelings of misery that still hadn't disappeared surprisingly.

I took advantage of my time and decided to pay a visit to my long time friend, Alyse, whom I haven't seen
since I turned human.

She had always been the one with words. And her strange addiction to cleaning up her cottage still astounds me. Despite the fact that she was talkative and a clean-freak, she was of some sort, a motherly figure.

I had always gone to her when I've had my own troubles and she'd cook me up some of her best recipes. She was definitely a good cook.

Apart from Alyse, I've never really had many interactions with the other angels. I had what we'd call, the 'human infection'.

Of course, that doesn't really exist. They only said that because I was once part of the human world.

Hressia, Alyse's daughter, was indeed the most beautiful angel I had ever laid eyes on. She had her mother's blue eyes. She had locks of golden hair and always wore a dainty dress.

I treated her like my own child, obviously wanting one for myself. It was considered a 'gift' to be blessed with a child, and only those of higher ranks will receive it.

I thought about starting a life with him while I was still human. It's something I've always wanted.
My own family.