My online diary

Thoughts

I've been having thoughts. About me....you know....dying to my own hand.....me swinging back and forth as my letter is on my white wood table. Finally getting away.....getting away from everyone and everything....getting away from my thoughts......my friends tell me not to listen but it's hard to not listen when it's your own mind telling you it......telling you your worthless. Annoying. A bother. Ugly. Not skinny. Telling you things no one should hear in their lives but I hear it from myself everyday.......my mind telling me those things.......yesterday I was in my room listening to music-...and I looked at my wrists...and looked at my knife from my science kit in my room.....I looked away and got on my bed to take a nap.....and then it didn't come back.......