second chance

butterfly kisses

2015 ✨
"Promise?"
"Pinky Promise."

Year 2018

It was a rainy day when I laid my eyes on you for the first time after 2 years... yes after that time when we had the most complicated ending. Haven't had a good closure, no words from you, nor shadows from you, all I had was pain from everything u did to me.

As I looked into your eyes, I saw a different spark... but it was the same feeling from the very first time I met you.

"How are you?" As what my lips has uttered.
Deep inside, I still felt the love, the love I had for you 4 years ago... all the pain u caused me back then suddenly disappeared, everything around me went blurry, I can't understand how my eyes focused on u so damn good.

You're still the guy who has the sweetest smile, the guy who makes every second so worth it just by talking to you, the guy who always had a good smell, the guy who i would fall in love all over again even for a thousand times.

"Happy birthday" those are the words that i've been waiting for since the clock striked at 12 midnight, a greeting from u, hearing your voice made my heart skip a beat, it woke up the sleeping butterflies in my tummy.

How do I tell you how much I missed you, without leading it to awkwardness? How do I tell you, that you look so good with your long hair? How do I tell you that looking in your eyes have made me a prisoner of our long lost love, again?

But then, I can't. I just can't tell you those words, because we are different now, you had your life, and I had mine. I still wish you the best, even if that means me not being part of it.

Days had passed, and I'm still in awe for every amazing thing that has happened between us.

It started with a stroll, with little talks that isn't even about us, it was about you and me as an individual.