I remember the first time...
That look in your eyes,
Such a foreign gaze to me.
Pain, sadness, anger..... disappointment
I was the cause for it,
I could not meet your expectations,
You misread me.
You thought I was more
When clearly I was not.
I wish you could see how I feel,
How your words cut me,
Hurt me,
Made me insecure.
"I'm a disappointment"
The same line replays in my head,
Kicking me down,
Making me lesser of what I was,
Damaging my self-respect.
I'd love to say that your words don't hurt,
That I've gotten over it,
But I'd be lying.
"I'm a disappointment."
For letting it get to me
"I'm a disappointment."
For becoming weak
"I'm a disappointment."
Because I failed you
I let myself down,
Because I thought I was better
And I could do anything.
I'm a disappointment....
To myself....
