My Nightmare

Chapter 1

You have no idea how long it has taken me to write this all down. I have tried to start this diary for about a year now. I have tried time after time again, and I could never bring myself to relive those horrible events. There are so many things that have happened in the past year. I am still terrified to death, but I have to do this. Otherwise, I won't be able to cope properly. It is now September 25, 2006, EXACTLY 6 years ago from when it all started. My name is Kathryn Marie Walter, and this is my account of those events. 

I moved to Houghton, New York at the age of 21. My mother was not pleased that I was moving several hundred miles away from her but she also understood why I wanted too. I had moved to Houghton from Galena, Illinois. It was a very big move, but thanks to my parents, the move was a breeze. As to be expected, I did not know anyone in town for the first 5 months of living there. It was scary at first, but eventually, I gained confidence. I had accepted a job offer to be a manager at Practically Perfect Salon while being an Esthetician. It was a great gig, and I was able to make all of the money I wanted. I loved my job so much. There are some days where I miss my job, but I still have a lot of healing to do.  

I had finally befriended a co-worker, and she ended up becoming my best friend; my sister.   For some reason, I couldn't connect with any of my coworkers except for her. She understood me in a way no one else could. Our friendship went from just chatting at work, to going out together on Friday nights, and then from that, it went to mid-day coffee dates at our local Starbucks. Lydian was such a beautiful person inside and out. She had this wonderful sense of humor, AND she was gorgeous! She had beautiful blonde hair and deep blue eyes... Anyone, gay or straight, could get lost in her eyes. She made me question my own sexuality!

Lydian and I spent almost every day together for 5 years. We eventually became roommates. She was my rock. The one person I could just call and she'll be there in 2 minutes. I miss being able to just call her out of the blue, and tell her how my day went. God, I miss our talks... I miss her.

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I am going to fast forward to about 5 years ago now. The first year was basically me getting to know Lydian, and Lydian showed me around town. 5 years ago, on September 24, 1999, Lydian and I went out Friday night for our weekly girls night. She and I went to the town's frat party and partied like we were freshmen. It was so much fun. I remember Lydian doing all these white girl dances just to make me laugh. She always knew how to make me laugh.

Later on that night, Lydian and I were sitting at our table, drinking, and talking about how awful the single life is. I was complaining about how I was never going to find a guy since I wasn't as pretty as her. Lydian would just laugh, and encourage me. She always responded with, "You are beyond gorgeous, hun! If I were a guy, we would be more than friends by now. How can any guy not want you? You are the most beautiful person I have ever met!"

After about 3 hours of partying, Lydian I and decided to go home. It was so nice having my best friend as a roommate. Once we got home, We instantly decided to bake my mom's infamous no-bake cookies. God, they were delicious that night! The Oddly more delicious than any other time in my life. We made the cookies and watched Friends until we fell asleep.