Never knew love till i met him

MY LIFE

So this is my story as I need to tell it to someone as no one understands how I feel I don't know myself but here goes.

It all started 4 years ago when I was meeting my friend Jesse as I bought something off her it was a pink iPod I wanted for a while so I gave her the money and we talked for a bit till we decided to go for a burger king.As we went to walk off I got shouted not by name though he didn't know my name but he knew my sister I knew that because he said "you sound the same as a girl I know and I replied "fuck off".That's when I noticed how hot he was I really liked him but I was shy I mean I just told him to fuck off but he didn't deserve it the truth is he knew my sister Annie and me, her never ever have seen eye to eye through what she has done to me in the past I will admit I wasn't perfect we fought over the most stupid things like pjs and dvd's.But I would of never did what she did to me so I used to think she'd never betray sister code right but I told myself nah I am imagining it she is with my friend which I set them up they were happy.Anyway I told her some stuff I thought I could trust her after a while it took time but I managed it I told her that I have a crush on a guy in town she asked me what was his name and I forgot which I laughed at but then I remember that jesse said his name is "bryant"That's when I said "oh his name is bryant he is like incredibly hot"She was happy for me that I had a crush but a few day I went to town to find him at union square with his friends I apologised but then I walked off again but he said"you not staying for a chat"so we got to talking not much as I couldn't help but smile around him and I bowed my head down to look at the floor he kept talking to me but deep down I think he knew I had a thing for him as he was wondering why I kept smiling but I made up so he didn't know I was to shy I thought I can't tell him I like him he won't be interested in a person like me so I never asked I let him speak and I spoke back but I didn't stay long I wanted to but it was nice talking to him but he was friends with annie  so I couldn't really talk to him.I ended up staying later as he asked me to but he walked off I didn't ask where he was going he just said "be right back"but I waited for a while as he was the only one I knew in town or so I thought but I didn't know who else was in town till the next morning at college me and Annabelle were close friends until I heard that she was dating bryant but what can I say she never knew I liked him I thought if she knew would she of went with him anyway she asked me if I was going town with her. I didn't want anyone thinking I had issues with jesse so I went to then wish I never because me, jesse , bryant sat at the back of union square but I was standing and them two were kissing and I looked away upset to think why didn't I ask him out but then I whispered to myself cause your a coward so for a few months I kept seeing them together and as much as I hated it I was just waiting for them to split up as jesse new that this wouldn't last because she was a party girl , yes so was bryant but he sometimes liked to stay in a chill out not party all the time. So a few months later guess what the broken up to then hear that he didn't care really of other people and I thought yes this is my chance to ask him but yet again still scared didn't know why so guess what happens I miss out again but this time who dated him this time....

           OH MY GOD !!!!!! MY SISTER I was so angry at her I couldn't believe it but yet again I played along as I knew I lost but ill tell you why she got with bryant because I told she was in love with her fiancee who she has a kid  called miley but to then realise her and my friend were having problems they were not serious but she wanted him to pay for being nasty to her which he wasn't he had a good reason to be pissed off with her she cheated on him and then got with Stephen to piss him off even more I was is it just about Adrian or is it about both of us.It was about both of us she hated me in general and wanted to make me suffer and with Adrian I don't know he loves her and always will this is how she said it to me "least I can get someone and keep them" mind you I was still a shy virgin at 18 I couldn't believe what she said to me so I knew from then on she got with bryant to hurt me to then a few days later bryant facebook mails me and asks me when is annie 's birthday party I ignored his texts and I tried to avoid him.Me and my friends went to union square for food and a walk bout I didn't know he would be there I thought he would be at home sleeping as it was early for him but I was wrongly mistaken I bumped into him at union street seating area while we were eating he came up to me and said "i text you on facebook and you seen it just you never replied"i didn't wanna tell him oh yeah its cause I have a thing for you no wait its more than I thing for you but I lied to him I said"sorry I got asked to do something"but what he didn't know is I never went to her birthday either I can't remember where I went but I didn't go to her birthday party. I sat in my room for half the night until I got told to come down stairs. Sick of hearing about her now lets skip the story as it hurts to write this about them fine lol ill tell you about the park me, mum, annie and bryant went to the park and annie was talking to mum and I was talking to bryant but I followed him across the road to the side where the park is on we waited at the traffic lights for annie and mum and Miley to cross over ... anyway we all sat at the bench I was okay until bryant took off his shirt to then see annie touching his chest ,then lay on him I was getting really bothered with it as before I wasn't really a lie ha ha ah I just didn't know that she would do that in front of me.bryant and annie walked away for a walk thats when mum said "whats wrong with you"i replied "nothing just tired" but mum wasn't stupid she saw it a mile away and said"do you have feeling for him cindy"i replied"mum I've liked him since jesse"she replied"cindy that was over a year ago what why didn't you say anything"i replied "he is with annie mum I can't do that to her"mum said "she doesn't want him cindy she just using him to hurt Adrian"I was shocked at first I didn't know what I thought was true I sat in silence after that even walked home in silence as well.A few weeks later mum phones me and tells me she's at annie flat and that she wants me to go there but when I got there no one told me what was happening I got told to get dressed as were going out for dinner so I did what they asked me to. 1 hour later a knock on annie's door she opened It up and said she set me up with bryant I was shocked as I wanted to do It on my terms but I had to be realistic I wouldn't of tried so anyway we went to his house for our date and we spoke better as the day at the park but anyway we were at his watching movies after the first movie he asked if I was hungry I said"no" he then came back through he sat down two seats away from me and I was nervous I stopped speaking as I did not want to mess it up. He finally asked me as I was to much of a chicken shit so he asked me"you coming for a cuddle"i smirked as I have a nervous laugh and I slowly moved closer to him that is when I started getting comfortable in front of him but deep down I was scared I was like what if he doesn't like me ,why me ,i did not know that secretly he liked me back he never told me.