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Before the new school year begins [ENG]

Summer vacations are coming to an end.

It's sad when I think about it, I have the sensation that I'll left behind so much things of my own life.
I'm gonna discover something new.
It's exciting but it also reminds me the last 4 years of my life. At least I think, the most beautiful and happy years that I had in my whole life.
During those 4years, I learned how to be myself, and that, that wasn't the only thing I learned. I learned how to love myself, I learned love, happiness, sharing, kindness, I learned friendship, i learned sadness and depression, of course because life can't be perfect.
Learning all those things made me change, sometimes in a good way, or sometimes, in a bad way. I'm not denying it. I regret some moments of these 4 years, but bad moments helped myself.
It helped me to build my personality.
Sure, it'll change.
Starting tomorrow, I'll be in a unknown place, full of unknown people, without my marks.
I really hate being in somewhere I don't know.
It's stressful.
Let's talk about the 4 passed years.
I made fabulous friends and buddies, who love me the way I am. I'm afraid to change, I'm afraid to lose them. Some people say "the best friends you'll ever have, that will be your high school friends" well, I'm sorry, I don't agree.
I love them so much.
There were, good friends, and toxic friends, there were buddies, or only slight homies there and here. But those people helped me as well.
The learned me how to laugh, and how to appreciate moments when they deserve to be appreciated. They learned me sharing and criticism. And I'll trade them against nothing because they're so precious to me.
I'll also talk about my city, my little tiny city, in the middle of nowhere, where there isn't much to do, but that I also adore, in this city, there was like a routine, everyday, seeing same persons, going to a same place, by always the same road, going to the same little college that everyone hated but adored at the same time. But somehow, I loved this routine. Everything is going to change now, my city, I'll see it really lesser that usual. I'm afraid to lose my routine.
I'm afraid of change, I'm afraid of losing memories that I made those past 4 years, because I already don't remind some of them. That makes me really sad.

You know, time flies.
Time flies too fast to be appreciated and that's too bad.
So we keep the memories we have in our brains to replay them again and again.
But what we know, its that our brain don't have illimitated storage place. We just close our eyes, and continue to dream.
I hate time.
It makes us feel like we miss something. Like we are,
In the ignorance of such a journey.