I'm so tired of this constant run
this struggle
Of trying to sort through "friends"
like major pieces of rubble
What's the point of a relationship
when I'm just used as a shuttle?
If this were Hogwarts
then I've been treated like a muggle
But I'm a half-blood prince
With infamy that's been stained
That's just trying to rinse
All this bloody pain away
Once a knight
Now a nomad
That still can't seem to abstain
From those plains he learned from long ago
The only days I'd run away
Were nights like this one
I do not dare conform
Hoping it leads to comfort
Yet as life strains harder
The fight is just for slumber
The world turns colder
Losing out by numbers
Of people who can no longer
Seem to remember
Who you are - can't even see as far
As right in front of their eyes
in that moment
Just blinded and paralyzed
By running into you but being met with
the loosening of ties
That used to bound us
And kept us from the lies
The silent get away it gave me
Is hit by those tides
Being eroded by them
Each and every time
And although this hurts like hell
Even though I smile
The loss really has lasted
More than a while
