Forget Me Not

01; happy never after

I opened my eyes that Sunday morning, hearing the birds sing and the wind blowing my curtains, everything seemed just fine till, I remembered that my father had died five days ago.

I got out of bed quickly and put my favorite Brandy Melville jeans on with a cute top, and went to brush my teeth. As I stood In front of the foggy bathroom mirror, I stared at my self for a while, wondering how could I become truly happy again? My father always told me, to never give up on yourself because "the best is yet to come" even though I've waited so long and nothing exciting has happened to me, but hey, I'll wait and see, just for you dad.

As I was about to go downstairs I heard my mother asking my sister, Rose, if I was awake already. So I walked down the stairs and my mother asked me "What would you like for breakfast honey?" And I said "I ain't hungry". I guess it's because I really miss dad, he was my best friend and I will always look up to him, I don't know what to do.
I went to the living room and sat on the rugged couch and just stared at the wall, my sister came in and asked me if I was okay, I told her I was fine but I'm sure she doesn't believe me, no one does.

There's this really pretty sunflower field about 25 minutes away from our place, father & I would always go there once a week, so I decided to go there now, to distracted my self from my thoughts.

It was a beautiful day here in Robin Hoods Bay, the U.K is usually green, always rainy and damp but I love it, the rain calms me down, although today was the opposite, sunny, warm, birds chirping, and my dad being gone. I started to think "Gee, I really hate my life".
As I was walking down a thin path, I saw a bunny hop right passed me, why isn't that peaceful? I tried to be positive about everything I saw on my way to the sunflower field, but I felt so alone. This feeling ain't gonna leave me ever.
I miss you dad, please come back.