Sometimes I sit and think and sometimes that's all I do all I can do something just come to me out of thin air like a bomb and I can't stop myself from it. But....there's not a day when I'm thinking about tos ey set.
Ch 1. Maybe it's for the best........Old friend
"you're breathing heavily again.....you're sure you're okay?" no I'm not okay how can I be okay when eh is eht ylno thing I think of my mind keeps on going to the same place why are you on my mind.....Marcus? "I just went for a run you expect me to keep the same rhythm of breathing that I had before running?"I'm sorry if my mind keeps me occupied but I will not tell you what's really on my mind for you will say the same thing you always do you'll move on no need to worry that's how the world works, after all, I have no mind just a foolish heart right, Laura? "you might be right but is your heart alright you don't feel woozy or anything maybe my mom can check it?"But yet you don't trust me nor think of what I have to say is that smile a lie on your mask too? "Nah i feel fine plus it's getting late I should probably head back home my moms probably worried" I smile and laugh a fake one once again your face turns sour as you scrunch up your nose "that look in your eyes don't tell me not again your think about him again arent you Clarix its always him and no one else!"but that's a lie I also think of you oh how toxic you are and if you even actually care?you're my friend right or, or maybe, maybe I'm wrong. I laugh and shake my head and look ahead "There's no such thing as one subject laura there are many things I don't know that keeps me up at night just thinking of them besides its been a while since I las heard of him" that wasn't entirely a lie but it also wasn't the truth."tomorrow we go back to school I hope we don't read more Shakespeare" I think we where starting to sound like his literature" these are the moments that I love but hate as well "I was being serious tho it's getting late my moms probably getting worried I should head home, bye laura" I wave towards her as I leave she never was a hugging type well not with me at least."bye Clarix"I look at my feet and take out my phone 6:26 its not that late I look at the sky "it looks like its going to rain huh?" and as soon as the words leave my mouth I feel droplets of water on my head " the rain was always a pretty sight to me I wonder what moms doing right know or dad or brother I wonder did laura even care? or was she just pretending too? Not like it matters anyway"For a few seconds it's like time stops the droplets that were once falling stopped in mid-air and someone passes beside me someone with a black raincoat and then time starts and the rain falls once again and it feels harsher than it used to feel. I put my hand over my head trying to cover up I hear a chuckle and turn around seeing nothing "maybe I'm thinking too hard? or maybe I am imagineating it? yeah, that's it!" the rain starts to get lighter and lighter by the second "I may like the rain but when it gets mad it's no good"I hear another chuckle but decide to ignore it this time a voice follows after the chuckle a deep husky and almost mesmerizing whisper next to my ear saying "be careful love we don't want you to get a cold ienim ebi illwi uoiy I promise"I feel a shiver go down my spine and look behind me and see nothing "I'm going crazy that's for sure" I say under my breath and I start jogging towards my house afterward I walk in and lock my door being a little concern I start walking towards the kitchen "you're soaking wet Clarix!" I shiver and my mom comes running with a towel in her hands she grabs my hair and starts to dry it first "there's no need for that ma I'm about to go take a shower"she stops and smiles but then hits my head "you had me worried first you leave and don't even say anything your dad wanted to see you before he left"I look at the floor my bangs covering my eyes "sorry I know I should have said something but you where busy and I didn't want to bother you as for father I just didn't know-" "you could have left a note or a text message, something" "I didn't want to worry you with a text and as for the note it didn't cross my mind I'm sorry "she nods " at least your fine go take a shower and use the hot water I don't want you to get a cold alright?" I blank out for a second"say mom did you say that to me before" she looks at me confused "told you what exactly?" I shake my head "Nah forget it I've been thinking too much "she nods "seems about right" I laugh "I'm gonna go take a shower now okay mom?" she nods "yeah " I walk in my room and pick out my pajamas and the underwear I head towards the bathroom and find towels already there for me I smile "Thanks mom!" I shout it takes a few seconds but I hear my mom respond "for what?" she shouts I look at the towels they don't look familiar almost new "nevermind" I ignore the bad feeling in my gut and turn on the shower.
