The Dying Girl Whom I Loved

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It's been a week since I became friends with Anna. It feels great.

I don't know how long I can control my emotions. I really don't know.
'John? John? John!' , Mom's voice reached my ears. 'What are you doing?'
'Oh nothing, Mom', I said. 'I didn't hear you coming into my room.'
'What are you doing?'
'I was ...... just sitting and ...... thinking.'
‌'It's dinnertime, so come down quickly.'
'Yeah , I'll be there in five.'
'Okay honey , see you in five.',she said and went downstairs.

I was so excited today. Not that I am not now.
But I got into the bestfriend zone of my childhood crush.

Words cannot express how much I love her.
But whenever I try to speak to her, it feels like my mouth is full of rocks. Its so difficult to speak to her. She is just too simple, sweet , pretty in her own way. I am not saying that she is the most amazing girl in our school. But she is the most amazing girl to me.
And that smile. It's enough to make anyone melt like burning butter. Huh! I heaved a sigh. My time will come.

I went down to the dining room to see my parents and to have my dinner. I sat next to my Mom and started eating.

'So, what did you do today?',Dad asked.'Your  face reminds me of Mona Lisa.'
'Mona Lisa? Why so?'
'Because she is crying and smiling at the same time.'
'Which means what exactly?', I asked , confused.
'Means that you are looking both happy and worried', he replied.
'Nope nothing interesting.', I lied.
'Nothing?', he asked quizzically. 'You did at least "something" , didn't you?'

[Mom coughed]

'Dad , pass me the ham,   please.'
'Here. Have you been out with your friends?'
' It's no big deal, you know. Unless you are smoking or drinking alcohol or making girls pregnant , I have no issues.'
'Okay Dad, geez.'

After I finished my dinner, I went upstairs, put on my pyjamas and headphones. I played my favourite nighttime playlist and started thinking about Anna. She asked me if I could meet her tomorrow and I said yes. I needed to sleep and mert her at 10 am sharp.