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Prologue

Once I arrive back to America, my resolve to take the first flight back to South Korea had completely diminished. I was so ready to at first, but all of my fears and anxieties crept back, and I realized that maybe I did make the right decision. After all, Yuto can't afford to get caught up in a scandal, and I can't just move my entire life to South Korea for a guy. Life just doesn't work like that.

When I exit the plane, I find Elizabeth with a huge sign that says 'CLAIR DAVIS GET OVER HERE I MISS YOU, B.' I laugh at the sign as I run over to her and give her the biggest hug. We scream like little girls causing other people to look at us weirdly, but we don't care. As we head out of the airport, I throw away the burner that I used in Korea without turning it on because I no longer have any use for it.

The entire way home Elizabeth bombards me with questions about my trip, the group, and anything else she can think of. She asks what the boys are like, did I have fun, did I ever meet BTS, what the heck was wrong with me for not meeting BTS. It was very fun and amusing. When we reach her apartment, she helps me carry my luggage in. We throw it in the guest bedroom before making our way to the living room and collapsing on the couch.

"That's a new jacket, isn't it. Did you get it in Korea?" Elizabeth asks curiously. I look down and realize I'm wearing the jacket Yuto gave me. The one he refused to take back. Without realizing it, a smile creeps onto my face.

"Yeah, I did." 

"Wait, is that the jacket that Yuto gave you?" she yells. I simply nod as an answer. 

"Wait, so what happened between you two?" 

"When my parents went to visit me, I ended up having dinner with them and Yuto. While we were talking, my mom let it slip that I had feelings for him. He confronted me about it, and I told him it wasn't true even though it was. He got upset and stormed off, but I couldn't tell him the truth. I'm too much of a coward, so I wrote him a letter confessing my feeling to him. I didn't give it to him directly. Instead, I left it on his desk yesterday before I said goodbye to them all. I had a small bit of hope that he would find it and come after me at the airport, but he didn't. On the airplane, I was talking with a girl around our age who was listening to one of their songs, and she made me realize that I had made a mistake. I was ready to get off the plane, but I was too late. They came over the speaker and told us to buckle up and put our phone on airplane mode. I was so ready to hop on the next flight back to Korea as soon as I landed, but the entire plane ride I thought about it, and I realize that it was a bad idea. I mean, yeah, I have strong feelings for him, but it just wouldn't work." I explain.

"Wow, it's like a drama. It's actually heartbreaking when you think about it. I mean, I see where you're coming from, but aren't you going to regret it?" 

"I would rather live with the idea of him and what could be than to date him and ruin everything including my relationship with the other members," I say honestly.

"Do you think that would happen? It could work out." 

"I don't want to take the chance," I say looking at the floor. I hear Elizabeth let out a deep sigh as she realized she won't be able to change my mind.

"Well, you know I support you no matter what and that I'm always here for you," she reminds me. "Are you going to keep in contact with them?" 

"Honestly, I haven't thought about it. I don't know how to contact them, and, I don't know if I want to or what I would say. I think I'll give it some time and try later. After all, I became good friends with them, and I don't want to lose that."