Dear Secret

Dear Secret,

It's been a while since we last talked. Everything's been complicated lately but you're always on my mind. Remember the day you asked me if we could go anywhere, do anything, what would I want? I didn't know what to tell you but I think I've figured it out. I would take you to my hometown. We'd go to my favourite spot growing up. That the large fort structure has the best ice cream I ever had. I swear, you'd love it. I'd suggest the bubblegum but you'd probably get the cookie dough because we both know that's really your favourite. After getting ice cream, I'd take you on the trail that they have behind it. You might complain because it's a four kilometers but I'd convince you after some nagging.

Because it's the summer, along the trail there would be flowers blooming. We'd jokingly talk about what would happen if we got attacked by a bear, or a wolf, or any other creature that the signs on the trail warn us about. I'd tell you that I'd take the hit so that you could get away safely. After all, I'd hate myself if I lost you again. I would tell you about how when I was younger, my old best friend and I would come out here to look for treasures that were supposedly hidden out here but we never actually found anything. You'd ask if I wanted to look around for them to see if they still existed but all I would really want to do would be to get to the place they call 'lookout peak'.

When we get there, I would run ahead of you just to see the view. It would be exactly the same as when I was younger because nothing ever changes in that town. The hill looks out over a huge forest and you can see out for so long. It's a picture perfect scene. Even as a kid, it would bring me peace. There's no sound of anything but the nature in front of you. I always said that I wanted to bring someone I loved back there and share that moment the moment when I look back to see how I've come from being a scared, bullied little girl to someone to be proud of. You would hug me as I told you how I wasn't sure if I'd see this moment because of times where my depression made me want to die. You've always been the one I trust.

We would sit there, playing some music, listening to our voices echo back. Spending hours there, talking and singing anything and everything. Some people might find that boring. After all, you asked me what my perfect date would be if money didn't matter. But sitting there, you beside me, smiling, would be perfect.

I hope that answers your question. At this point, any time I could spend with you would be the best time.

I miss you,

C