overbooked-maylor

youre my best friend

rogers pov

me and the boys were on our way to a hotel. we had a concert about a week away, but decided that it would be fun to spend the week at a hotel.

although we all had separate rooms, it would still be fun to be around each other.

the van came to a stop and brian was still sleeping on the window. john leans over and whispers to me.

"roger, what if we scare him?". john says with a giggle.

"ok, but you do it.". i say. john giggles and puts his face right up to brians ear.

"BRIAN HARLOD MAY WAKE THE FUCK UP"

brian jumps awake.

"j-john what the hell?". john and i were both giggling like little school girls and then brian joined in.

i looked into brian's eyes and realized something i have never realized before.

they were so beautiful. everything on his was was beautiful. but i'm not gay. you know like in a bro kind of way. like a bromance. like.......no homo.

all three of us got out of the car and freddie climbed out of the front seat.

"ok darlings, we all have separate rooms, so we'll have to check in separately." freddie says. i whin, as i hate speaking alone. especially when doing something like this.

brian looks over at me. he might have heard me whin. whoops. he slows down walking behind us and puts his hand on my shoulder, separating me from the other two.

"rog, are you ok, what was that whin for?". he asks me. i looked away trying to think of a good lie i could tell him.

"rog, i know that when u look away your thinking of a lie. i've meet you.  just tell me the truth."

"w-well i-"

"roger". his face was serious and he stopped and faced me.

"brian it's not a big deal. i just don't like talking to people. i don't want to check in by myself. i just don't like it." i felt really embarrassed that i was getting so worked up about that stupid thing. my face began to blush and i looked away from brian.

"rog, don't be embarrassed, i'll do it for you ok?" i look back at him and giggle.

"oh, brian, you're my best friend!"

brian has made me feel a way that no one else has. well at least, no man made me feel that way.

his dark chocolate curls covering his face, bounced in the sun, shined and sparkled. his hazel eyes were breath taking. i caught my self getting lost in his eyes multiple times.

it was a weird feeling this way for a man. i mean i'm not gay. he's just so beautiful. i've never felt attracted to men before.

"roger?". i look up and see freddie staring down at me.

"yes fred?" he might have caught me staring but i really hope not.

"the lines a little backed up, i'm going to the gift shop. come with me darling". he says. i just smiled and nodded although i didn't want to stop looking at brian.

freddie took my hand and led me to the gift shop. we looked around but all i could really think about brian.

"roger you look worried. what's on your mind?" freddie pats the seat next to him, signaling for me to come sit down and talk. 

"i-i'm not really sure fred."

"is it about someone?". he might be on to me but i hope not. 

"w-well um- can u ask you something?"

"anything darling!"

"how do you know when you're in love?"

"well darling, that's kind of a loaded question.  it's different for everyone.  but you just know.  you could look at them for hours and never get bored."

check.

"-you can't help but get hot a flustered around them-"

check.

"-and you always think about them, no mater the time of day"

check. 

"freddie, why do you keep using them?"

"oh darling because you can fall in love with positively anyone!  and you won't know until it happens."

fuck. 

i guess i am gay. 

i like it. 

has a nice ring to it.

'roger the gay' i giggled to myself.

i looked up to see freddie still looking at me. 

"why do you ask lovie?  got someone in your mind?" he asks with a giggle.  i just look up at him with a big smile plastered to my face. 

"hmmm so tell me, who's the lucky girl?"  even freddie thought i was straight. i'll just play it off like i am. 

"i'm not telling you!! you'll tell the whole world!". i said with a giggle. 

"rog!  tell me!  it's important for me to know these things!"

"when we're alone". i said.  he just nodded his head and went back to scribbling on the little notebook on his lap. 

after that i kind of zoned out thinking of all the backlash i would get if i ever told anyone if i was gay.  well everyone but freddie and john.  brian isn't gay.  he has had a girlfriend!  well, i have too, but he probably doesn't like me.  i'm just a gay freak who no one will ever love. 

"rog?"i look up and see brian's tall figure standing in front of me. 

"yes brian?"

"there's a problem with our rooms" he says and points to the front desk.  there's only one way this could go, and it's not good.