I cried

I seen your Snapchat
and i cried
to see you there with him,
an animal, an animal you once decried
an animal you even threatened indeed

I was part of your world once
a better time
more innocent and such a laugh
when youd come round every day
listening to music with a glass of wine talking about the days to come

Winter turned to spring
we changed each other
i fought for you against a rising tide
against your own cousins
people id loved for years
and you forgave others for me

I thought you had it all
friends, family, a lover i would have gladly called my own
sitting on the yellow bed covers,
we'd laugh, make jokes and spend our time doing all the things that friends do

Then you rejected me
not for betrayal or lies but instead
because i would not endorse your shoddy affair
with a 5'2 gremlin and I believed you would respect that i didnt approve,
the old you that is
because wasnt that you?
the one who stood by their beliefs and stood up for what they thought and how they felt
is that version of you now long dead?

I seen your Snapchat and i cried
to see you there,
best friends with the boy who led my sister to fear and paranoia
and broke into another friends home
all because she couldn't take him anymore

What will the future hold?
the very people you demonised for years
they picked me up when i was down
them and their band of misfits writing love songs
dont you see the  pure beauty of them all

But your lights gone out
your comments harsh, unforgiving and unforgettable
what's our future i might ask?
it seems bleak

I haven't spent time just with you in so long
September if i remember
but at least im not alone in this feeling
there is another, the girl you built up
and now, you sit with the animal, the one who hurt her
its a criminal shame

If i could but find who you once were
id bring you back and cast out the creature  in your place
you were once a sunflower,
strong, loyal and free
but now i have no idea
what you even mean to me.

When i say all this
it might seem cruel
you'd wonder why id even bother
but i still have hope for you
and for how we were
its not yet a feeling of emptiness
but a stabbing pain in the heart
it reminds me you're still here
and as a famous lyricist once said
"my heart still beats for you"