Don't Do It.

It just gets worse for me, every day

I think to myself every single day

"What is my purpose here on earth?"

"What am I doing here?"

Then I have these voices in my head

Telling me to give it up and just do it

I don't know if I'm scared to die

What if dying isn't like what anyone imagined?

I wake up every day and put this fake smile on my face

I still get bullied

I still get treated like trash

My parents are trying everything in their power to help

But it's not worth it

I don't want to end up doing it

They think I don't have the guts to do it

But I do

My parents really do need me though

I help them with everything in return for their unconditional love and support

So, days and weeks go by

Turning into months

I decide that I want to stay

I stand up to my bullies and they stop

I am myself again

I hear voices in my head 

Saying, "Don't do it"

And I don't.