And it's my dream to let him accomplish what he always wanted.
It's been a year since we broke up. Although we agreed to be friends, I tried my best para iwasan na siya dahil alam kong yun ang makakabuti para saming dalawa. But now he's here, ruining everything that he took so long to build.
"I missed you. Don't you miss me, Babe? Don't you miss us?", he asked after kong alisin ang pagkakahawak niya sa kamay kong akma niyang hahalikan.
"Cci, what are you doing? You're ruining your career! You're ruining your plans. Why are you being so immature? We sacrificed so much to get you where you are now tapos bigla mo na lang itatapon yun lahat? Because of what? Because you miss me? Grow up, okay? Stop this. Please. Go home"
I made my way outside the vicinity after saying those painful words at him hoping that it will drag his hopes down. Dire-diretso lang ako sa classroom and thank God walang tao sa loob.
Maybe you're thinking, hindi ko na ba siya mahal? May iba na ba akong gusto?
Well, the answer is a big NO.
I love Ricci Rivero at nangako ako sa sariling siya lang ang mamahalin ko habang buhay at ganun din siya. Yun ang pangako namin sa isa't-isa at yun lang ang pinanghahawakan ko hanggang sa ngayon kaya hindi ako tumatanggap ng manliligaw kahit pa minsan natitempt din akong maranasan kung paano mahalin at alagaan ng malaya.
"Babe! I love you! Please, kausapin mo naman ako. Please mag-usap tayo! Bakit ba parang ang dali-dali lang sayong itaboy ako, ha? Hindi mo na ba ako mahal?!", panunumbat niya sa akin. Tinaasan niya ako ng boses dahil galit siya. Sino bang hindi magagalit kung pinahiya sa harap ng maraming tao? He went inside and locked the room para siguradong walang istorbo.
"Cci, napag-usapan na natin 'to, right? Please don't make things complicated, okay? Hindi na kita mahal? Naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo?! Why are you doing this to me? Tell me! I sacrificed my happiness para matupad mo ang mga pangarap mo kahit na hindi ako kasama tapos itatanong mo sakin yan? Akala mo ba ikaw ang lang ang nasasaktan? Akala mo ba ikaw lang ang nahihirapan? Akala mo manhid ako? Am I a masochist to you?!", tinaasan ko na rin siya ng boses. I don't care kung nagmumukha na kaming baliw sa kasisigaw. Nasasaktan ako dahil hindi niya maintindihan. I'm hurt dahil hindi niya ako iniintindi. Some times he's just too insensitive as a lover.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Babe",this time kalmado na siyang magsalita habang yakap-yakap ako ng mahigpit.
"Miss na miss na kasi kita kaya pasensya ka na kung nandito ako at sinisira lahat ng pinaghirapan nating dalawa. I'm acting like a kid who lost his toy. I'm sorry if I had to make a scene. It's the only way para pansinin moko eh. You're not replying to my texts and calls tapos pag nagkikita tayo, umiiwas ka. Akala ko kasi napapagod ka na kaya ko nagawa 'to. I'm sorry, Babe",he added at mas yumakap pa sa akin.
I miss this - a minute with him.
His smile, this petty fights, his hugs, his scent, his Ily's. I miss everything about him so much.
"I'm sorry rin kung nataasan kita ng boses kanina. Ayaw ko lang na pinag-iisipan moko ng masama. Of all people, ikaw lang ang hindi ko mabi-bear na ganituhin ako. Nasasaktan ako sa tuwing hindi kita pwedeng masolo pero alam kong makakabuti 'to sayo and I'd do anything for you, Babe. That's how much l love you, Ricci Rivero"
I let go of his tight embrace, held his head to adjust it to my level and kissed him in the forehead.
"Ang tangkad mo talaga", I teased him and bit my lower lip.
"You're tempting me", he mentioned as he pin those stares at my lips.
I blushed with the idea.
"Mr. Rivero! U-uy, d-don't y-yo-you dare!", I told him nervously.
I know what's running in his mind right now at kahit pa kinikilig ako sa idea, hindi ko mapapayagan dahil baka may makakita sa amin. Itinulak ko siya ng marahan kaya naman tawang-tawa siya sa reaction ko.
"Calm down, Mrs. Rivero. I won't do stupid things that will get you in trouble. I promise!", seryoso niyang sagot at lumingon-lingon sa paligid bago ako bigyan ng quick smack sa lips.
"Babe!", galit pero kinikilig kong tawag sa kaniya at hinampas-hampas siya ng marahan sa chest.
Here we go again,
Everytime we do things like this mas lalo kong napagtatantong ayaw na ayaw kong mawala siya sa buhay ko.
"I love you so much, Babe", I told him without looking. Some thing just pushed me to spill those words.
"I love you too, Mrs. Rivero", he replied and kissed my cheek lightly.
We stayed there acting like newlyweds. We savored the stolen moment because we both know that it wouldn't last long.
As students came approaching, we had to bid our temporary farewells to each other because it's the best thing to do.
We smiled and nodded and our hearts understood.
We smiled sweetly with our eyes twinkling before losing sight of each other saying as if we won't give up the fight no matter how hard is the process.
We're back as lovers once again.
White Flowers
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