What If?

Chapter 1

I scoot more next to him while I browse his eyes. He looks at me. He was a rookie at a football team. We've known each other since preschool. His dad died in the military and he's had his dad's military jacket ever since he left. He leans in close to me. Then whispers "I love you." And we kiss. It seemed like forever, then I pull back my head. I smiled and so did he. I looked at my watch, 3:55 A.M. I stood up on the dock, stepped back and jumped. The water felt cold but I didn't care. 

The next day I felt sick. It was first day of 11th grade and I was always having trouble with grades, boy, bullies, girls, homework, and teachers. And I didn't even know what to wear. Then I heard a ding, my phone! It said I have to cancel the date......sorry babe. My mind went crazy. All these questions came running through my brain. Is Grey cheating on me? Are we breaking up? Does he not love me anymore? I'M SO CONFUSED!! My stomach started to growl. I better get breakfast.

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I got dressed and went downstairs to get breakfast. My mom already left for work so i would either have to catch the bus or let my best friend Xander drive me. I think i rather him drive me. "Honk!" "speak of the devil" i said out loud. It was him! I guess Xander knew i needed a ride. I grabbed my bag and ran out the door. "Hey cutie" he said with a wink. I rolled my eyes and got in. "i know you have a boyfriend but a guy could try" he said with a smile.

  I giggled, "just drive." it takes at least 10 minutes to get to school. When we got there the front of the school was crowded. Me and Xander got out and he shut both of our doors. "Want me to walk you to class m'lady?" he said and then bowed. I laughed, "yes i would like that.' i curtsied. We both laughed and walked to class. When we got into the school i saw Grey looking at me. He gets jealous easily so this might be bad. He went up to us grabbed my hand and took me to an empty classroom. He's going to yell at me i know it. 

  But he just stood there, looking at me. It was silence for a couple of minutes. "Are you going to just stand there? Me and him are just friends if you're not okay with that then say it" it was a couple of seconds and then he said the thing i knew he was going to say "i'm not okay with it."......... "then we are done" and i walked out. He can't pick my friends. I heard him calling after me but i went over to Xander took HIS hand and i took him to his car. "Let's skip school" i said. We got in and when i put my seat belt on, Grey was at the car door window. I rolled it down and said "what?" he kept telling me to get out. "NO! i'm not going listen to you!" and i rolled up the window and told Xander to go. "What's wrong with you and him?" he asked. "Just keep driving" i said.

  We drove to the beach and we sat in the sand. "This is nice" he said "and romantic" i added. He seemed surprised when i said that. I looked at him and he looked at me. I never looked at him like this. To be honest he looks......cute. And that's when it happened. We kissed, but it's different from Grey's, his is soft and nice, but Xander's is hard and more passionate. I like it.