Sometimes, it just feels like the world is spinning so uncontrollably that all you can focus on is how far you're falling, and how much you're head hurts. This feeling, however, occurs only when I think about.. everything. All my problems, troubles, etc. Typically, though, I try my best to avoid them, pushing any thoughts that may have the slightest chance of giving me anxiety out of my mind.
I am out of my mind.
What a strange phrase that is.
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What a strange person I am.
Short, light brown hair in messy curls, falling just above my shoulders.
Brown eyes that turn gold in the sun. I feel like that's fitting to my personality as well.
My personality. That's.. an interesting subject. My best friend once described me as having the ability to "change moods with the flip of a switch". Which, yes, I can corroborate. I like to tell myself I just have a dynamic personality. But, the truth is, there are too many parts of me to understand, it makes it hard to exist.
Yikes, ok, not what I meant. I just meant... ok, think of it like this: you know when you're doing your homework or something and you just can't focus? And you keep telling yourself to focus harder and harder until you're only focusing on focusing and not your homework? It's like that. The more I try to figure out who I am, the more confusing it gets. And, yes, whatever, I'm a teenager and this is "normal" for me, at least that's what the adults always say, but nothing about this feels "normal".
God, I can't wait until the normal days.
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