Dear Mama I've lost you before death could consume you.
I fought for you in more ways then you can imagine.
yet you won't fight for me. why ?
am I not smart enough pretty enough ,or obedient enough?
I've cooked and cleaned for you trying to make you smile but that only lasts a short while . you say you love me but can't tell me why? what kind of love from a mother every night make you cry?
And even when your man was talking about me, you let him never ashamed and never to be blamed. you worry and stress about a man who only puts forth a small check. How can you marry a man that put his hand around my neck .
everyday you hurt me and you act unaware but even when I try to tell you ,you say you don't care.
I bring home A's and B's, but you never see, you never care don't you love me?
I asked for love and attention but you act like we have lost the connection.
I've cried to you and you laughed .
All you care about is your man in your phone and wonder why I want to leave home...
You yell and Shout and when i to try to still love you you count down for me to get out. You claim I'm so negative but it comes from you and all the pain you put me through. "you're just like Nae Nae", but all she ever did was love you and be a little selfish one time or two. you put Arnaja on a pedal stool and you treat me like I'm a Fool ,use me like I'm a tool, and neglect my love like I'm a ghoul ,
you claim I'm evil but what evil have I done to you. I loved you, cleaned for you and cleaned your shit too, I've given you my joy and always hid my pain. Took good care of you when you were sick and loved you even through the rain. you don't take me to the doctor even when I feel sick but will raise your hand at me real quick. You allowed your fifteen-year-old to get a job but I can't even leave the house and when I'm angry you expect me to be quiet as a mouse. You always talk down on me and never have anything nice to say unless I give you things your way.
But I'll Always Love You More because you brought me in this world, because a long time ago I used to be your baby girl .
I don't know what I did to make you hate me I don't know what I did to make you cry ,you've asked me a million times so I promised not to lie. You're my mother and this is not all this is only half of how you made my self-esteem fall.
No you will never be alone because my love travels through each of your bones.
you won't accept this truth ever, but if you do just know even through all your bullshit.
I still love you.
