What is wrong with me?
I cant focus on anything, I cant remember anything.. Its my splitting personalities..
Fuck my memories anyway.., who needs those..?
Its all blurry in my head. Its all stupid anyways.. I hate all of it. I hate my anxiety and my depression.. I hate how even if I laugh and smile im not happy, If I cry because of just.. Anything, I dont feel it.. Its something ive always had.. I need it to STOP. I hate how im always hiding everything.. While im still so open, always making fun of myself, who even is myself? Who am I? Who have I become? Ive done countless things to try to help myself..
It sinks into me, cold, dark, and dreary. It harms me mentally and physically, or it used to physically..., It surrounds me with the sheer blackness of the void, shivers violently start to shake me at the top of my head flashing down my neck, into my shoulders and shocking down into my fingertips, traveling faster than the speed of sound, down into my torso, and into my legs and feet. It violently covered me in sheer blackness, violently taking control of my mind.
I didnt know how to feel, how to act, how to see, who to be, im always switching..
