Alone.
Yep.
These phrases;"no man is an island"
"The one who is there during your lowest times are true friends blahblahblah"
I dont believe those.
Things happen.
Where an emotionally unstable person like me who is sensitive thinks this is a big deal.
I was greatly dissapointed.
It happened again. Where Mr. Situation slaps me hard with reality that I really have no one.
I am person with few friends.
Just a normal highschool kid. Getting just a little bit above the average grades.
With a cliche childhood maybe?
Lol.
It happens that today we have a project or performance task in personal development in which we would take a photo of ourself in our career choice. Then edit it and make it like the frontpage or rhe cover photo of a magazine.
It was an individual task.
Well, I guess I am the only one who will take psychology in our class and the others were choosing law , police, teacher, etc.
They helped each other with the photoshooting because they got the same career choice. But I am left out.
I dont have "friends" in our class. Maybe a comrade ?, or ally I guess. But we were not that close for me to ask him this favor to help me because of the obvious distance.
But I guess atleast I have one.
So yeah. Well I asked my friends yep. My real friend whom I consider. I did memtion a while ago that I have a few right?
Well the irony is, all of them turned me down.
It hurts. Yep. ALL OF THEM.
The worst part is here.
AGAIN.
THE WORD "AGAIN".
This isnt the first time it happens. Maybe it was .... always? Mostly? Oh let me fix that.
"MOSTLIKELY ALWAYS."
there. Ta-da.
I mentioned earlier that I do have a cliche dramatic past/ childhood experience.
Well I was bullied. Humiliated. Outcasted. Used. Betrayed. Hated.
Its just the normal instance of. A bullying story. They made fun of me. Destroyed my reputation. Brainwashed my "friends" etc.
If we were even friends in the first place.
To cut the dramatic long story short I was alone.
No one wants me in that school.
But since I believed that my so called friends who were "defending" me sometimes or in what I deemed "allies". I gave my purest and sincerest trust and love as a friend.
Oh yeah. How naive of me.
Ignorantly believing that they were true for 6 years. Kinder to gr. 5. Well it was because my parents were teaching me to be a good child.
And I was I kid.
I was fragile.
Naive.
Innocent.
I endured everything. Cherished my parents teaching, being a good obedient child.
I was so naive to believe that they were true. That they also like me and. Love me how I do to them. That they could also honor their promises.
