When you're so afraid to hurt others, you decide the only way is to feel the pain yourself.
Loves become so abstract, I've retracted from the idea of its possibility.
Because in my reality,
I've hurt those I loved and love has hurt me
but it's a fair exchange of pain and misery.
Stealing my liberty to love and be free,
Drowning my heart in tears I've shed
Trapping my thoughts in a self perpetuated hell
Where my cries are smothered and this deafening silence appears as just another bad day,
And not the beginning of self-violence.
Because I am nothing... but a fire, uncontrolled
Burning and scarring those I can never hold.
And soon happiness becomes a mixed drink of tears and shivers
Numbing the past in hope the present delivers,
Something, anything, without this heartbreak.
But how do i start something new when all this pain is trapped in my heart?
because my life is riddled with strife
And there's no belief of any possible relief.
So please realize that my eyes shout desperate cries
As I've devised a guise
comprised of lies
to escape the devil and his black skies.
But our friends are gone without goodbyes,
And it's a world I no longer recognize,
As I tear into pieces
And lose you
Lose something this pure and true
Lost because of uninvited feelings
