Unconditional

Chapter 15

After I was dressed Chris rubbed my feet.

"Kimberly, where do we stand now?" he asked not staring in my direction, but instead, focusing on my feet.

I sighed, "I don't know. Chris, I do love you but it's so much going on and I've never seen you handle so much with out giving up when the going gets tough. Chris you have three kids, two baby moms, and a pain-in-the-ass baby momma's momma. That's already enough."

"Be real. Is that too much for me or for you? Can you handle being with me while I'm dealing with everything?"

"I don't know if I could deal with you running around, besides let's not stray too far from what I was saying before."

"I know you don't really think I'd leave you?"

"I don't know. But knowing you, I wouldn't put it pass you."

I tried not to be so harsh but there was no way around it.

"Well what can I do to makes you see otherwise?"

I shrugged, "nothing, it's something I gotta do for myself. I've been so selfless during our nine years of knowing each other. I use to always put you first, give you advice on how to get a girl that you wanted, even though none of them could have wanted you more than I did. I use to hurt watching you be with other chicks. I wanted to be mad at them but I couldn't be. I'm "just trying to make sure I'm making the right decision now that I have control over my emotions."

"Why did you put me first if I was being selfish?"

"Because I promised myself that I'd be your best friend before I was love struck. I just wanted to be someone that would always be important to you. If I put myself first, I don't even think we would be in this situation. We wouldn't even be close. Seriously, do you think we'd still be friends if I started acting a fool while you were trying to mac? No."

"Kim, I was young and stupid then but I've matured. I know that I love you and that I want to be with you-"

I cut him off, "yeah but for how long before you get bored? How long before you want to fuck someone else?"

I could see Chris getting fed up by now but these are things I have to consider for a solid decision.

"I don't know what else to do. I'm telling you what I want and I hardly leave your side. I haven't had sex in months, if I wanted to fuck around I would've been did that shit. I know I made mistakes on the past but your being very difficult right now. What miracle do you need to happen for you to believe me, because I will make that shit happen."

I just shook my head in response. He sighed heavily and removed himself from under my legs & left out of the bathroom.

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I went to my bedroom expecting to see Chris already in bed but I only found my bed and room to be empty. I was about to search the house but I saw a piece of paper on my pillow.

It read, Call if you need anything, in the sloppiest handwriting that was barely legible. So I know he just scribbled this note quickly before leaving.

"See, Just like him to walk out when things aren't going his way," I say out loud, "he's only making things look worse for himself."

I desperately wanted to take a nap but I had to send in the orders for the shop and finalize a few things for the decor.

After I was done that I happily climbed in to bed but just as I was getting comfortable my doorbell rang.

"Now who the hell is this?!" I grunted getting up and making my way downstairs.