So,My name is Alex and as you know by the title this is my journal about my life. This is NOT a diary or a rant or a rave. Its just a way for me to cope. So yeah up till now my life hasn't been so bad. Actually mild. Well I guess we start at the first day my life went zoinks.
Kindergarten,sometime in 2012 or 11 idek, I was just chillin being the same happy person I've always been and I encoumtered my first bully. Yep. We've all been bullied. Some mentally. Some cyber. Some physical. Me? All of the above. I was hanging out with one of my best friend,Ian Conrad and we were the nerds ;-; . Well he started saying things along the lines of "'Ey ya fuckin' nerds" and "I'm kewl and y'all suck dick" and "Do my homework NERRRRDDSSS". It was bad but you know what I,ME,(for the people who know me now) didn't do a damn thing about it. But Ian didn't like that too much and told a teacher and the kid got in trouble.
After school:
Guess who decides to stop by to see me and Ian after school that day? You guessed it, the bully. Guess who he attacks? You guessed it, me and Ian. He throws a punch at Ian and I don't really know what happened but all I know is that I flipped and when all was said and done the bully was running home crying and limping. Well I guess this was the first use of my exosive temper.
A few weeks later my mom found out I beat up the bully and she didn't get mad!!?? She just told me I should tell her if i was getting bullied. So I was found talking to my mom by the bully and about a week later the dude decided to mess with me and my girly friend Alaina. What's funny about her is that her best friend's name was Lani so it was weird because until I met Lani I called Alaina Lani so..... Yeah it was awkward for a little while but I got used to it. Well I was going through school just fine y'know. And it was about 5 or 6 months into the school year and this girl named Maine had a HUGE ass crush on me and one day Alaina was walking in and Scarlet walked past me on the playground at the wrong time: while Scarlet was crushing and flirting on me and kissed me on the cheek.
So yeah I had no girlfriend and at the moment i didn't want one do to the fact of I was starting to see what a broken heart, depression, and sadness were.
My life was going to shit afterward. I started being a different person for the worse. I was being rebellious at 6 and i felt like a badass because I hated life and thought if I changed So would Alaina's opinion of me.
Its weird but the truth.
I was never truly happy for a while after that until I met the love of my life.(we've met off and on but this was the first actuall hang out) I was ACTUALLY happy around her. Just like someone from my 6th and 7th grade year. And probably onward. But the girl, love of my life's name was Maya. She was beautiful. I'd only just learned what the word beautiful meant and the definition:Maya Rene'.
We would laugh when we hung out which in the year 2011-12 we did not hang out much so. Yeah. But anyway
About a month or two later i was told that my friend Ian was a bad influence and i freaked ape shit.
I was put on medicine do to my explosive temper. It wasnt good medicine. It was messing with my brain and making me act different. It was the kind that made rhings worse because all it Did is while it was in your system you wouldnt freak as bad but the second it leaves your system all the insanity pops right up building again and then u take the medicine again and it just piles and piles and IT DESRROYS YOU.
I was just going through it like normal after that nothing bad really happened. A few traumatizing events like fights and arguments between family and friends every single one because of you. Me actually. But that's something to think on.
This has been the first chapter in life so far it will start and end with thw events of my life and I might change the style of it. Well I guess for now,
Goodbye
