It's A Mindset

It Was Never Me

Hey so this is the first time that I've let anyone read my stuff that isn't my best friend so I'm a little nervous. Feedback is appreciated, thanks.

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You're the drug that I'm addicted to but can't have. Dealers don't have anything that can get me as high as you did. The feeling of how we used to be is forever engraved in my mind, soul, and body.

This addiction is overbearing. There's nothing I or anyone can do to get me the help I need; to get over this over exuming feeling that runs through my veins like fire and water. The freezing feeling in my body when I hear your name that makes me go silent and numb. But the fiery feeling which ghostly lingers that gets me that taste of adrenaline when they talk about you.

They still talk about you.

I still want to talk about you even though my soul dies every time those letters combine and start to form your name. I still want to know what you're doing and what your mind is thinking.

Your mind

Your mind is the most beautiful thing about you that lures everyone in but you don't share it.

Why don't you share it?

Why don't you just talk to me about that's going on?

Why don't you just let me in?

Why won't you just say what's bothering you?

Enough.

It's over.

I'm done.

I don't want you anymore but I do but I don't but I do but I don't is what you repeatedly said

What do you want from me?

You know I love you and will kill for you but you won't do the same for me at least that's what you made it seem like. You don't love me and I understand. I'm a hard person to love but you're a hard person to crack. We both have our addictions. You're mine but I guess I wasn't good enough to be yours

Maybe in the future we can get each other high again but for now I need to relapse. It's a hard thing to do that nobody wants to endure.

I'll see you on the other side once we've both relapsed. I just hope you won't find another drug that gets you high before we meet up again...

Please don't.

Hope you guys enjoyed.