Hi, to the person reading this, it's probably someone else or it's probably you.
If we are still together then were still okay right? Or you have felt diffrent but all I have to say is I will always stay with you and support you my entire life no matter how weird or awkward it is for you but if you don't want that you can tell me and I will stop and I just care about you it is not creepy okay?
If we already broke up all I want to say is I hope you find your one true love of your life and hope he treats you the same way I did and give you the life you always wanted and do not stop following your passion and you will be sucessful in life and no matter what happens never give up and just get over it as crying will never help in anything but just hold you back.
I may or may not give you this story earlier even when we are still because I have no patience but yeaa...
I think we met at the start of the year when I kept thinking you are Roja for some reason but at first I didn't care about or trust you at all and you were just some girl in the back of the class. The first half of the year we didn't really communicate with each other but I remembered that Letitia wanted me to give you the password for our class instagram account and I was extremely reluctant to give you the password as I didnt trust you and thought you would just spread the password out to everyone but I was wrong..... You kept it safe and even posted good memories there.
Fast forward to around July my "good friend" M hotel told me he is interested in you and the next day I went to disturb you about it and he told me during the math peer tutoring thing by the way and the first time I talked to you in person the because of the M hotel like you thing okay so if we are together or now only awkward friends it is because of him so be appreciative. The first time I actually liked you is around end July and it's because I got close to you through M hotel but we were extremely close that time so I didn't want to ruin our friendship through just confession and now everytime I think back in our close times I become very very sad because we are not even close to each other nowadays. Remeber those times we went to karaoke together and were so happy there and even one time we went to the movies together, I loved those times and I always wanted to travel back in time to all those good times. Remember after the movies we went to BBP for karaoke again and and Natalie went home.... We were alone together and that's the only time I felt that I actually liked you as I really like spending time with you alone as we dont really talk to each other alot when we go out with our friends and after that time I really felt that I was interested in you.
Fast forward to around a week or two before the exams, I stupidly asked you if you would date or reject me knowing that you would ask me why I asked you that but I still asked you that question.Anyways after alot of pestering from you I decided that I would just confess as I felt that it's time to say it out or it may be to late and at first I wanted to confess through text and ask what you want the next day but I felt that confessing and asking you out in person was more sincere and I was not awkward with you then so I had the courage to ask you out in person.
Everything went better than I expected when I confessed to you and you accepted me and at that time I thought you actually loved me but that's what I thought and I thought wrong and not even after one week you said you just wanted to give me and chance and friendzoned me. After you said that, I lied that I was fine to you and tried to make you think that I thought the same thing as you but actually I felt that my world is spinning out of control and felt that nothing cared about me anymore and I tried to forget about it by studying but I can't forget about you and I cried while studying not because of stress but because of thinking about you. Remember those times I said cute things to you and I even gathered the courage to say 'I love you and I dont want you to get in trouble ' or something like that, you get the idea. I missed having you coming over to my house and I was really sad when you said you were awkward with me and didn't want to come over.
After you was Aqaisha and about that I was really sad too not because she wanted to breakup with me but because you reprimanded me just for her and at that time I still loved you and I felt that you hated me. I tried to warn you about her toxicness but you didn't care or trust me but just said that I was mean to her.
After all that drama I felt that u would forever hate and stuff and I always wanted to go home and not go out cause I wanted to be alone to be sad and I also do not want to put you in a bad spot because its you who made me sad so I always went home to have some time alone and to be sad. Ever since you said that you liked me I felt that a rock had been lifted off me melting heart and I promised myself to give you a good life and I also promised that whatever happens I would commit my time and money on you but I was thinking too far as i haven't asked you the dreaded question "what are we? " .
When I asked that I got the worst answer possible, you said we were awkward and we were not 'that' yet and by that time all my hopes were lost but the next day I asked if we could get back together and I didn't ask in person as we were not that close anymore. All after that I was happy and fine as you accepted me and by that time I promised myself to be close to each other again like in the past. I do not want to be awkward with each other already especially because of some stupid dare I did yesterday just forget about it and not being close to you and making you awkward made me realize that life without you is very boring. Now being in a relationship with you is very confusing for me as I don't know what you are feeling so pkease be straightforward okay? Pwease. And I prmise to you that I will make us not awkward with each other and all I want you to know is I will cherish you for the rest of my life even if we are just friends in the future or we are still together.
That's all I have to say for now I hope you have enjoyed even if I am with you or have broken up with you already just remember I would never hate you and I'm always there to help and if you want to find your true love in your life I hope he treats you well but I hope I can be in a relationship for a long time and lastly I hope we would go out together by ourselves without anyone else as I would really love and appreciate that.
