Sad Conversations

Friends

I wish I could run up and hug them, every single one. Online or in real life, I love them the same. I want them to stay, I don't want to think about the fact we'll all die. What if they leave me? My greatest fear is to be left by someone so close to me, like my friends. I don't want them to break me, to stab me in the back. But I can't be sure, what if they hate me?  They could just say so, it would be so much less painful. What if they lie and I was so gullible as to believe it all to be fooled? I just needed to let this out. 

Sorry if this ruined your day. I just wanted to write some of this down to express my feelings.