If only he had done it right. If only he had done it right since the first time. If only he could have done better. All of these thoughts seemed to swim back and forth into Kyungho's mind like in a stormy night. If only he had done as good as people expected of him.
He looked at Dongbin, he opened his mouth, "If only," he let out. Dongbin looked at him and shook his head, he was as hurt as Kyungho. He, as Kyungho, was holding the tears back.
Kyungho's face screwed as he locked eyes with Dongbin. Kyungho shook his head in disbelief, his mouth trembling. His forehead wrinkled. Dongbin shook his head again. Kyungho then dove to Dongbins lap, sobbing over it, his mouth wails trapped by Dongbin's sweatpants.
When he felt Dongbins hand on his hair, Kyungho's crying finally broke loose. If he knew Dongbin - and he really did - he knew Dongbin was probably crying in silence watching the outside through the window. He couldn't do anything, though.
Kyungho couldn't hold himself, as much as he couldn't stop thinking what if/If only, this time Dongbin would have to hold him through.
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Fanfiction1. If Only: KT is eliminated by IG from the 2018 Worlds and Smeb, and Score, cannot take it lightly in the ride back to the game house. 2. Painful, heavy words...affectionate, beautiful meanings: Dongbin is scared he isn't good enough to Kyungho but...
