Just My Luck

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'Look at me,Look at me, struggling Bring me down,
I want more of it..'

Roxanne,

I'm so tired of being treated like an outsider because I'm a little darker than my sister. My own family treats me horribly because of my mother decision, maybe she should've kept her legs closed and maybe...just maybe! I wouldn't be here. That probably would make them so happy if I was gone, well let me help them fulfill that.

here I laid in the bath tub with the water all the way up to my neck. I popped so many pills I lost count but, that wasn't all. I was also gonna slit my wrist and slowly enjoy the high of slipping away from the world.

I winced in pain as I dragged the razor across my wrist now watching it bleed. I could feel the life slowly leaving my body, I tried to fight to keep my eye's open but they just didn't stay open. I was happy now! I'll be able to see my dad. He was the only one who really loved me. He died from a stroke three years ago, I still haven't moved passed it. To be honest, I don't think I ever will....

Finally, I shall get the peace I've been wanting for so long.

But Did I?

I saw a white light but, it wasn't the light I was hoping for it was a hospital light instead. Not even bothering to open my eyes to let them know I was awake for what exactly? They damn sure don't care for me or about me! Why did they even bother to help me? I shrugged running my hand across the bandage on my wrist where I cut. As much as I didn't want them to know I was woke, I was thristy. It felt like someone forced a popeyes biscuit down my throat with little to none to drink. I leaned over pressing the emergency button on the side of the bed catching my sister's attention.
Just My Luck..

"She's awake." She said, taking a seat at the foot of my bed. Me and my mother we had a stare down until the nurse came in rushing over towards me.

"Are you alright, sweet heart? What do you need?" She asked checking my machine and IV. I smiled as best as possible I was in hella pain.

"S-Something to drink." I said as best as I could before coughing.

"Ok, I'll be right back with your drink." She said disappearing out the door.

I sat myself up rubbing my stomach it hurted really bad.

"Your stomach it's gonna hurt. They had to pump your stomach you took so many damn pills it send your stupid ass into a seizure." My sister spoke so nonchalant about the situation. I'm the least surprised by her actions she has always brushed my suicide attempts under the rug like I do it for attention, which I dont!

This wasn't my first time trying to kill myself it's my 3rd time trying. Their stupid asses! just need to stop trying to save me. obviously, I don't wanna be here anymore. I really don't have no reason to be here anyways, my own mother and sister hate me and they're pretty much my only family. Well.. I do got my dad side but, I just can't find them or get in touch with them no kind of way. The only way I was able to contact them and visit them was through my dad but he passed away.
Just My Luck, right..