Together

Chapter 1:

I can't take my eyes off the couple in front of me. It's not like it's anything new. I see couples make out all the time, I mean this is high school. Yet, I don't think I've ever wanted it as much as I do now. Now that I've had a taste of it. The feeling of comfort, security. Being cared for. Being loved. I scoff and tear my eyes away. Whatever. They say falling in love is amazing. It is. It feels like you're flying. You can see over all the mountains. The view is... indescribable as is the feeling. Then you've fallen and you're on the ground and there's several words to describe it. Excruciating, agonizing, raw. Your whole body, your whole being, is broken. And you cant use his clothes as a cast because the smell, the touch, the sight. It breaks you all over again. I know. I'll die before I let myself feel that way again. Helpless and utterly miserable. I speed walk to the bathroom. Nobody can see me like this. They'll stare pityingly. As if they understand. As if because they had one class with him they'll know what it feels like to lose the person you loved most in the world. I feel a rush of gratitude when I see no ones in the bathroom. I lock the door and balance myself on the sinks. I feel dizzy. I look up into the mirror at my appearance and try to see myself the way he saw me. Sparkling brown eyes and flowing brown hair. Please, I look horrendous, my hair is a mess in its ponytail and my eyes look soulless. I slide down until I'm sitting on the floor and allow myself to think of him and surround myself in the joyful memories caused by him. I think of January 23, 2013.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" All of my family and friends cheer. I laugh and throw my arms around my best friends, Ashton and Kaitlyn. Though it isn't until after I say thanks to the rest of my guests that I finally get some one on one time with them.

"So, you're sixteen now." Kaitlyn says wiggling her eyebrows at me.

"Yes which means-"

"You can get laid!" She squeals and Ashton just rolls his eyes. I giggle because now that I'm sixteen my parents are finally allowing me to date. Kaitlyn is thrilled because now I can go on double dates with her and trade boy tips.

" Will you just cool it. Just because she turned sixteen doesn't mean she's gonna become a super slut." Ashton grumbles and I give him a small smile which he returns with a wink.

"You cool it, I was only kidding. God why are you so damn grumpy?" She retorts flipping her long blonde hair over her shoulder.

" Guys its my birthday don't fight. I just want to eat my cake in peace OK?" I hiss but can't pull the smile off of my face.

"OK, but I need some more so brb" Kaitlyn stands and exits the room to go to the kitchen.

"Lucy, promise me you won't just date some dickhead OK? You need someone that isn't just gonna sleep with you." Ashton says lifting my face with his index finger until I'm staring into his beautiful green eyes.

" I'm never gonna find that in high school." I joke and continue to stare at his beautiful face. That's what he is, beautiful. He's huge at 6'5 and almost all muscle. He has a jaw line sharp enough to cut cheese and hair that looks like it was painted black in a mess on the top of his head.

"That's not true. In fact he might be closer than you think." He scoots closer to me  so were sitting next to each other but now with our shoulders touching. I want to kiss him. I lean closer. 'Please kiss me' I plead to him in my mind.

"Hey Lucy, just so you know you're out of mint chocolate chip ice cream!" Kaitlyn's voice booms thought the room and I jump back. She raises her eyebrow at our obvious movement, but says nothing of it as she sits down next to me and starts talking. I then let myself look over at Ashton, only to see him already watching me.