I went through my snapchat memories last night. A tear shed and I realized I wasn't alright. I saw pictures of when we were happy. So I had a smile, something I haven't done in awhile. Then I realized why we're not together and in my throat rose bile. My heart still aches over that break. That break that was only supposed to last a few months. Now your dating him. I can't help but to start hating him. His hands are on your hips where mine used to be. His lips are on yours where mine used to be. Every time we pass I have a minor panic attack. Cuz my heart it yearns for you to come back. I realize I said some things I shouldn't have said. It's painful cuz I feel like your afraid of me. I would say I've never hurt you but I already have. I never put a hand on u but words are just as bad cuz they make me just as sad. Yes I want you back but I want you happy as well. I know you can't find that in me cuz I'm just a shell of man hoping to be your future man. I'm hoping this is some extraordinary plan. But I won't fight against your happiness. So I hope while I'm hurting and healing. This choice makes you the happiest.
