I wake up to the loud sounds of my alarm clock. Another day of school, how fun. I look at the time and it's 6:50. Oh no, I'm gonna be late. I jump up out of bed and look in the mirror to see, myself. Not that I like what I see but I force a smile. Why can't I just be beautiful? Every time I look into the mirror I see a failure. Annie, stop wasting time! I put my glasses on, then throw on my black leggings and white adidas t-shirt. I look away from the mirror and turn the door knob and open my door to go downstairs for breakfast. I walk into the kitchen to the smell of bacon, my favorite. I grab a couple pieces of bacon then throw my backpack on.
"I'm gonna be late so I'll just get hot lunch today. Thanks for the bacon, mom. Love you bye." I say to her and throw a smile in there too. Convincing, huh? She tells me she loves me and waves goodbye. Yeah sure mom, like anyone loves me. I prepare myself for the hard day at school. It's not like I have many friends. Actually, more people dislike me than they like me. I don't really know why, I guess that's just the way it is. I really seem to have a hate-able personality and punchable face, at least that's what Mackenzie and her friends tell me. It's whatever though, I don't really care... I guess.
Time has gone by fast and it's already lunch time. I walk into the lunch room and go stand into the hot-lunch line. Nadia is also in the line. Nadia tuner, Mackenzies best friend. She only hates me because Mackenzie does.
"What are you doing here?" Nadia asks.
"Uh, getting lunch? just like you." I reply
"Ok... listen, Annie. Your like, oh I don't know, fat? Honestly I would really advise you to skip lunch today. You don't need the extra calories, your probably like 130 pounds."
I stand there looking life a fool. Was I really that fat? I mean I only weighed 101 pounds but did I look that fat? Maybe Nadia was right for once, maybe I shouldn't get lunch today.
"Okay freak, I don't know why your staring at me but why don't you get the hell out of this line? Okay?" Nadia says as she pushes me away. My face gets hot red and I just walk away. I don't have time for her bullshit. I sit down at my lunch table with my friend, Jayden. She's a really good friend and I don't know why she's friends with me but I'm grateful that she is.
"Hey Annie Banannie! You look cute today. Where's your lunch at tho?" Jayden asks me. I don't say anything. I feel embarrassed about myself.
"Hellloooo! Earth to Annie?"
"Oh yeah, I ran out of time this morning." I reply to her.
"Why don't you get hot lunch then." Jayden laughs.
"I'm not hungry."
"Oh yeah sure, spill. Tell me the truth."
"I don't need the extra calories, okay? Im fat enough now leave me alone!"
"The hell, Annie? your a stick! Who told you that!?"
"Nadia."
"Annie, that's just Nadia. Nadia is a self conscious bitch who makes fun of other people to make herself feel better."
I smile at that comment. I nod my head as I agree with her and I put a little smile on top of that, when really, we both knew inside that I was fat and probably overweight. Jayden completely forgot about it and I didn't eat lunch that day. It dosent matter though, I just want the day to be over with. I go into the bathroom to clean myself up, but Mackenzie comes in behind me.
"Ew..." she mourners under her breath to her other friends. I just don't pay attention to her because that's what she wants, attention.
"Hey Annie, you know your like, really ugly right? Like ever head of makeup because your acne disgusts me and ur nose is huge."
I hate her. I hate everyone. I just want to die. I'm so sick and tired of her comments.
"Ugh, fuck off Mackenzie. You know, I didn't even do anything to you." I say softly.
"Ha, ha, ha. You did do something to me, Annie. You come to school looking like a rat and it hurts my eyes, your an ugly slut!"
I walk past them and leave the bathroom. Why is she such a bitch, for no reason at all! Like seriously. When I get home I lay in my bed and think. Why am I so ugly? I know i'm ugly but I never really think about it. I'm also quite fat. I hate myself. I have makeup, but I never really thought to use it. Ugh, why the hell does their comments get to me so much. I unlock my phone to see a bunch of nasty texts from Mackenzie and her friends.
that say things like "Slut" "Bitch" "Pig" "Ugly" and more. I throw my phone and just cry myself to sleep. WHY AM I LIKE THIS! I can't handle this anymore. I can't do it!
