Barbie

There once was a time when my body used to be desirable.

That all changed when people like Nicki Minaj and Kim K came.

God, it's all so predictable.

All of you look the fucking same, out here looking for fame.

I'm sorry but it's unfair that i need to feel like shit because I don't have a "desirable body".

I guess not everybody is meant to be a hottie.

I got a dilemma, conflicted between loving my body and wanting to be slim thick.

I'm so tired of being sick.

It all started with a joke.

"You need to look like a barbie doll"

It changed my entire being from that point on.

I can't eat properly,

Cz my disorder is always a priority.

• "Put an alarm"

• "Love yourself"

• "Eat when you're hungry"

• "Love food again"

• "Change your lifestyle"

All these are things I have tried.

I just can't do it. There's always a reason not to eat.

It's gotten to the point where I can't even recognize my hunger.

I'm sure some of you would ask to have my body but won't ask for what came with it.

I hear you guys in the background.

Big girls had their moment to shine too, not denying that.

Don't believe me? Go ahead, ask around.

So before you start yelling at me because you were bullied for your body.

Please consider that I'm not talking about everybody.