Okay y'all so like- Im really nervous right now I cant think straight (probs cuz Im ga— nah-) because I feel really pressured with life and just- I wanna die.
My fam doesnt know a lotta shit I've handled in my life. I have only told them 0.0000000001% of my problem. I dont tell them anything because they wouldnt understand and they would just judge or scold me. They expect me to be a polite and understanding daughter that would do ANYTHING they would say.
I was an only child for nine years until my little brother has came into our lives. Till then, my fam expects me to be a sister who they can rely on. But dudes. Its my first time having a sibling. OF COURSE I WOULDNT KNOW HOW TO FUXKING ACT LIKE A SISTER. NOW Y'ALL WANT ME TO WATCH HIM AND EXPECT NOTHINg BAD TO HAPPEN LIKE WTF MAN- IM JUST A NOOB IN THIS Y Y'ALL NEEDA GO HARd ON ME HHHH- But- Im gonna be a patient lil dipshit and understand them. I mean, they re my family. Even tho Im done with their shit, I still love em :3. But there are some times where I cant stand my parents scolding me about a small thing that my brother did. I mean like, Im only human. I make mistakes- I have no experience with siblings or whatsoever- I just wanna be FREEEEEEEE FROM ALL THIS SHIZzLES AND NEVER LOOK BACK- I cry from time to time thinking that Im a little shit who needs to suck it up thinking it was no biggie- I look at my little brother and I think "oh yeah..I should be brave and strong with whatever comes to me because you are around..I am here to protect you and you are here to protect me too..we are siblings and thats how we roll. I was a baby too and I shouldnt blame you because I probably was annoying as fuck like you....or worse. Instead of hating you I should love and care for you. We dont know what may happen in the future. But I am 100% sure that we will overcome it together. As a family." I wanna be happy with what I have right now but my fam keeps on pressuring me and stuFF- But ya know what? I aint gonna be a wimp- Instead, Im gonna be a coward and run away from my proble— NAH JK IMA BE A STRONG LIL BIH HAH- ((watch me sob after this hAH-))
Man this aint tea this is a rant but hEY THANKs FOR READING I GUESS- Even tho I bet no one would read it :"
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