Robert and I started dating in 2009, broke up in 2011, get back together in 2012 and broke up again also in 2012 for good.
The reason of our break up in 2012 is because of the mistake that I had made that I so much regret and hated myself for doing it, I slowly accept that that's it. That's the end of our what so called "perfect forever" . I'm the reason why our relationship ended. I'm the one who fucked up the most important person in my life, Rob.
I admit, it is truely hard to move on specially that I am the one who fucked up everything. Technically I stop breathing when me and Rob broke up. It is like I'm living without a life.
I am still lucky I have a great friends, real great friends that understands, never judged me and never leaved me.
From the help of my friends, I started to learn how to live my life again. It takes too long but atleast I am moving.
Suddenly, a news crushed my heart again. I found out that Rob is engaged, happy and contented.
At that time I started asking myself questions that I can't even answer, questions that I do not know if thier is any an answer.
2 years later I decided just to be happy for him and to accept everything what it is and then that's the time I started dating again.
I never attemp to date a guy because I can't imagine myself with another guy other than Rob so I dated girls. Most of the girls that I dated didn't last long until I met Stella.
Stella and I dated for 3 years. We broke up because she was always busy with her blooming career and so was I. She wants to focus on her career to the point that our relationship is the one that needs to be compromised. I understand that. So we broke up in a civil way. We manange to be friends. Stella is now happy with her modeling career, she's also now dating a guy who is also a model and I am so happy for her.
Sometimes I ask myself if it is better for me to stop dating and just focus on my career because as you can see Rob and Stella became better without me.
