"Why me? why of all people in this chaotic world, why it has to be me?." is the question that im always asking to him(God). It was a dark night when everything happen. I was walking in that desserted street when out of nowhere someone grab me by my hand he pulled me, he draged me in an abandoned subway "Help me please, somebody please help me!!" i screamed i was so scared of what might happen "please let me go, i'll give you my phone, my money, my necklace just please don't hurt me." i beg so hard but he didn't listen to me instead he start to kiss me, touch me everywhere he desired. I did not stop fighting, screaming and begging but i was do tired, so weak, and so hurt. The only hope that's inside me got shattered when he start to penetrate me. It hurt like hell i can't do anything about it. I only cry and cry until he's done. Beneath my sweats i have a lot of bruises in my arm, my neck, my face, all over my body. I only feel relieve when he go and did not kill me. Shame and fear is what i am feeling , the shame of myself and the fear that someone might discover of what happened. I'm not ready to tell my parents or anyone, it terrifies me. Everytime i close my eyes the memory of that incident flashback, everynight i fell asleep the nightmare of it hunts me. It frightens me to be neared by someone i felt so alone, the horror of that event is unbearable. He took away my worth, my intimacy, my confidence, even my own voice. He ruined my happiness, he wreck my life. I stood infront of a mirror examining my body and decided i don't want my body anymore. That there's no more reason for me to live. So i perpetrate the only solution that is running into my mind. I climb at the rooftop and think. Afterwards i felt the strong wind crashing to me while im falling quick from the highest floor of that building. Then "boom!" everthing went black. No more fear no more shame just peace.
*A.N
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