Well I guess I should start with an introduction: Hi, so my name is Rae. How's your day? Enjoy me expressing how I feel about life, yes I know anyone can read this, yes I know I'm not going to say everything but enjoy. :3
Well let's start off with how I'm single now and I'm not with my bear anymore.
I can go on and on about how much I love her but she had her reasons like her life was stressful and she's not putting enough into the relationship and that's she's sorry
But of course I said don't say sorry because I didn't want her to be out of my life, but she said we can't be together anymore... so I'm currently falling out of love be force not choice. Yes I care for her and I love her. But I'm slowly moving on
I don't have any pictures of her on my phone, plus she lived in a couple different states away from me so there was never any physical connection more like personality things. When she cut things off I cried five times consecutively the first break up I ever cried about and the first person I genuinely loved.
Well I did have a lot of past relationships with guys and gals, unfortunately not any nonbinary pals. (See what I did there?) anyhoodle but I guess you could say I had some experience with relationships I suppose I definitely learned from them but I don't like to count those because I was younger and dumber and thinking that dating someone is super cool and not ever knowing what love means, I mean I do know what love means, I'm certain situations, like how I love my best friend, and I love my family and, I love my doggo. But My used to be Bear was the first connection, and first person that made me happy, and I feel bad for not being able to help her out more, but we aren't mind readers. I was going through some stuff to so maybe it was a good thing??
But then again I question things every day, I'll get more into that later but.
Falling. Out. Of. Love.
Is very very challenging
I have to try n not think about her, and think about every single detail about her, and how the only thing I want was to caress her cheek and pull her into a hug. Or even get a glimpse of her. Man I was so In love with this girl. I think I still am though... but I don't really know, I'm never really good at showing feelings unless I really know you, and we did know each other, we felt like we've known each other for like years. But time is weird like that.
The whole world is weird like that.
You never know whats gonna happen. But I'm handling it well so that's good...
That's the space girl signing off for now, until the next update I'll see you guys next time!
