#DimplesForDays

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            “Come on! You have to! Please!” I drew out the last syllable and waited.

            “No, I’m not going with you. They aren’t even any good!” my friend, Cammy, replied.

            “But I don’t want to go alone, why can’t you just do this for me?”

            “They aren’t any good Shawne. I can’t sit through hours of that. No way.”

            “Fine,” we were standing at the bus stop after our last class of the day and I couldn’t help but to wonder why when she needed something from me, I was expected to drop everything and help her but when I needed something, it was like it was such a chore.

            “I’m sorry, Shawne. Maybe you should ask Jenna or Kate?” the bus was already ten minutes late and I didn’t want to have to stand here talking to her any longer than I had to.

            “No, it’s cool. I probably won’t even go,” as soon as I said it, I regretted it. I didn’t want to guilt trip her into coming with me, I wanted to come on her own accord. At the look she gave me, I held my hands up. “No, don’t. It’s okay. It’s not like I paid for the tickets, so I’m not losing anything.”

            “I know that they’re your favorite, I’m sorry, tell me if you ever win tickets to Hunter Hayes or Justin Timberlake, I’ll for sure go with you to those!” just as she finished my bus pulled up and I happily got on and swiped my pass, knowing that Cammy wouldn’t be on this bus. I took the first empty seat and sat down, using the other empty seat for my backpack and putting my headphones in my ears. The concert was tonight and I needed to refresh my memory of all of their songs. Immediately, the sound of One Direction’s voices filled my ears and I was left to the lyrics of Little Things and the thoughts that haunted me on a regular basis. I had been waiting patiently for my chance at seeing the boys live and today was finally my chance. No, I wasn’t the biggest fan in the world, and no, I didn’t know every word to every song ever sung by the boys, but I was a fan and a poor university student at that. I knew that I would never be able to afford good tickets, or Meet and Greet tickets, so I often just ignored when I heard that they were going to be near me. But, when I was listening to the radio on my way to work and heard that they were giving away VIP Backstage passes and AMAZING seats, I had to call in. The question was simple, I mean…who doesn’t know that Harry leans to the right because his right leg is shorter than his left.

            The tickets were easy for me to win and I felt slightly selfish for wanting them so badly when there were super fans who couldn’t afford them and may never get the chance to see them. Yes, I felt bad for that, but I had to be selfish, I had to see this concert and I really wanted to meet them. I wanted to know what they were really like. Maybe I should have obsessed over all of the boys more and I would have understood them better and maybe then I wouldn’t have had to win so badly. But then again, if I had obsessed over them, I would have craved this even more, I think. Get it together, Shawne. I had to calm down and just relax and think about what I was going to wear tonight, how I was going to do my hair and what exactly I was going to say to these boys that were obviously way out of my league and super intimidating.

            The bus was getting closer to my stop and I hit the button, signalling that I wanted off. I slipped my backpack over my shoulders and sighed to myself. Breathe, Shawne, you’ll be fine. Just get off the bus and walk to the house. Don’t talk to anybody, don’t even look at anyone. The bus stopped suddenly and lurched my body forward, I couldn’t help the yawn that broke out across my face as I made my way to the back exit of the bus and out onto the sidewalk. The walk to my house wasn’t far and I knew that it would only take me a few minutes, but it was during those few minutes that I tended to have the most problems. Things had happened to me once upon a time, but I couldn’t focus on that now. I kept my head up, not making eye contact with anyone as I made my way towards the house that I lived in. I was renting a suite in a family home and it was very close to my bus stop. The walk took me, at most, five minutes and I was quickly unlocking the door to my suite.