Daddy's little bug (discontinued, see description)

18

"I have an idea" he ran to the kitchen. his pants had been abandoned by the stairs, his long Jumper covering to mid thigh. He grabbed the Mac book from the counter, logging in and going straight to YouTube. He searched for his song and after seconds he found it.

He walked back to the living room, where both of the people he hated letting down the most sat. both had teary eyes, their expressions leaked worry, but they stayed calm, and quiet.

"This explains most of it" Casey whispered, pressing play.

They're coming, creeping from the corner
And all I know is that I don't feel safe
I feel the tapping on my shoulder
I turn around in an alarming state
But am I loosing my mind?
I really think so
Not a creature in sight
But what you don't know is that

My breathing gets faster
And so does my heartbeat
I wish this was over
I wish that this was a dream but

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I'm not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

Wait, something doesn't feel right (feel right)
No, something seems wrong (wrong)
And I've been feeling this way (oh that's too bad), for far too long
As my vision gets blurred, my skin's getting colder
Appearing young, while I'm growing older
I collapse to the floor and scream:
"Can anybody save me from myself?"

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared (oh, oh I'm so scared)
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I'm not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

Walk into the latch, I find myself looking down
Frozen still with fear, now I'm plunging to the ground
If only I knew how to fly, then I could convince myself
This isn't my time to die
Instead I'm rocketing faster, and faster
I dive, fall to the floor
And when my body crashes to the pavement
I'm right back where I was before

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared

I created a monster, a hell within my head
Nowhere to go, I'm out on my own
Oh I'm so scared, no, no
I created a monster, a beast inside my brain
Nowhere to go, I'm not on my own
My mind impaired to wake me from my nightmare

Awake me from my nightmare
(I'm so scared) Awake me from my nightmare
(I'm so scared) Awake me from my nightmare
(I'm so scared!) Awake me from my nightmare

As the song ended the older's faces got more worried, even tipping slightly into sympathy. Casey hated it.

"How long have you felt like this?" Justin finally asked after a long few seconds.

"Like i'm living a nightmare? Since I was about 6 years old"

"Almost 12 years without help Case" Kelsey said sadly.

"I should've seen the signs, I could've helped sooner, I could've prevented this, I-"

"Stop" Casey cut him off, "i've had a lot of practice hiding my emotions, don't blame yourself for things you couldn't of fixed even if you tried" Casey walked over, sitting between the two. "Please don't blame yourself"

"I do blame myself Casey, because you couldn't trust me enough to tell me" Jay butted in.

"Its not that I don't trust you" Casey whispered, "I was just afraid"

"Of what?" Kelsey asked.

"That you'd stop loving me" he whispered as a tear rolled down his cheek. He ducked his head in his hands, rested gently on his knees.

"We could never ever stop loving you, baby" Justin said quickly, pulling the boy into his side.

"Yeah, you're stuck with us, babe" Kelsey added, rubbing a hand gently over his lower back, "and we'll get you help" she added.

"We'll help you fix this" Justin smiled softly, "you just have to trust us"

"I trust you"

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This chapter took way to long to write, sorry. Hope you enjoyed it anyway. Love you guys.

Update: this chapter was finished a month ago but i didn't have internet then I forgot about it. Sorry!