Trying To Forget You

A New Chapter

So, here I go....

There is a lot I want to say. So many things that I wished I understood. So many questions. But one question that has been in my head for so so long is,

Why did you have to leave me? I cry every night and I cannot sleep! I keep imagining your beautiful face and wonder how life could be so cruel.

I cannot say your name. No, not even if I want to. The wound still feels so fresh even though it has been some time now.

10 months, 13 days and 18 hours.

I remember when I could not bare to spend one day without you. I still remember that everyday when I woke up and saw you smiling that breathtaking smile at me. Now, I wish I could freeze time and relive that moment forever.

I love you so so so very much.

That is why I am going to survive. This is why I am going to live my life. Even if I am only half-alive. I am going to get help and be happy. For the both of us.

So this is me....

Trying to forget you