Lil Everything<3- Ski Mask The Slump God

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"I love u okay and nobody could stop or change that, yeah I almost drowned but that doesn't bother or matter me I love u baby I promise i won't stop" I said sitting on his lap pulling him closer to me he nodded and kissed me. I loved his lips i swear I'll do anything to kiss him.

"Let's go back in ?" I asked he nodded & we went back in. We played around & laughed with the others. I swim to stokeley & wrap myself around him. I lay my head on his bare shoulder & leave it there. I unwrap myself from hugging stokeley and go to Jahseh. I sit next to him and he looks at me

"Hey" I smiled

"Wassup shawty"He said with a smile showing his grills.

"Not much we just been distance and i don't wanna leave my bestfriend like that" I said he laughed & we hugged

"U ain't gon lose me" He laughed I giggle

"I hope not"I mumbled.

"What would u do if I leave this world ?" He asked

"Wdym"I questioned

"What would u do if I got stabbed or-or....shot?" He said

"I wouldn't have my other half. I'll be dead inside but not show it on the outside. I'll be sad, I would have a negative mindset" I said it was true tho Jahseh is my other half & I would be depressed & have a negative mindset. I wouldn't be able to have a best friend like jahseh he's my first ever one.

"Can't always be negative babygirl u gotta have that Postive Mindset bc when I'm gone ur gonna have to be positive for me for stokeley for the members only house & for the rest of the members only gang I'm not gon approve of u being depressed & negative when I'm gone and their not gonna realize it I'm having this talk with u bc I know, I was and am ur true bestfriend but trust babygirl when I'm gone I wouldn't want u to be dead inside and pretend happiness in the outside I'm saying this bc I'm telling u that when I'm gone I wouldnt want u to be the way I'm telling u not to be"He said

"How am I supposed to be happy when I'm truly not I know u would be mad at me if I'm sad & depressed and all that but I really actually love u, I'm not playing around X. I'm really happy when just me and u hang out, I love u and stokely but I love stokeley more and all but u-ur different If I was to choose one of u I would rather die bc u guys make me happy, I truly love u guys, u guys are my everything. Tell me jahseh how am I supposed to not be sad over ur death that shits hard jahseh harm myself just to protect u. I ain't playing. I'm having that negative mindset when ur not around when u & stokeley aren't around I feel alone even with the girls are there and the others there two but if u and stokeley not in the room I feel lonely I feel like the world stopped spinning I feel like I don't have anybody. Ur my first ever bestfriend i actually really had" I said crying tears rushing out my eyes

"J-jordan i-im sorry for menti-" i caught him off

"No x it's okay . Just know that I still love u & I would never stop, don't forget that we're FORVER bestfriends no matter what just know that no matter what happens between us, would pass and I'll still be here. I love u jahseh Dwayne Recordio Onfroy don't forget that but for now I need a little space" I said kissing his cheek while wiping my tears away I was mad and sad that he brought this up. I wasn't gonna show my anger I was just gonna show my sadness.

We been distance a little & when we together he had to bring this up, it hurt me, it hurt me just by thinking about him being gone. I can't have my first ever bestfriend gone I can't even think straight with all of this in my mind. I get up & limp upstairs still crying. I see X behind me and all I do is turn back and jump on him, wrapping myself on him hugging him really tight.