i'm not really sure how to start this. a sob story? a real life experience? no. let's not. but bare with me, this is going to be messy.
ok, she was hell. she was hell in a beautiful, angelic and really fucking annoying way. maybe thats what drew me in. ok rylee, this is for you. if you're out there, if you ever read this. know that you got what you wanted. all the attention, the streams of tears, you got the story. you got this story. if you never find this, if you never see how awful you were, then at least i can warn the next person.
rylee. a name i want to but will never forget. it started with a comment. one single comment. one single word. 'wow' not from me. not from her. from someone else that i won't drag into this story. followed by a direct message, this time from you, rylee. you told me to ignore the person who commented as if they had insulted me. i asked why and you told me it was because they couldn't have me. days later i knew why. you wanted me. you wanted to be the only one wh could comment on my pictures, direct message me or whatever. in a way i liked it. i liked that feeling of desire and of control that you had over me. note: the past tense in that sentence.
i liked it. i liked the way she made me feel when i was the only one she'd call. the only one she'd snapchat. and then i realised that she was the only one i would talk to and i didn't like that rylee. the control stopped then. the 'like' stopped then. i had dropped everyone for her in a matter of days. it was as if she was the only one that existed in my life and i could see everyone else but i couldn't reach them. my family. my friends. all for her.
from that point on, i changed the way i saw her. she had gone from the only person i needed to the last person i wanted. she ruined me.
you were hell rylee. you were hell. you were beautiful and thats what made me stay by you, then i got to know you and i started to like your personality a bit more and then you just flipped around. you just changed. it was as if a switch just changed you entirely. you were toxic to the point that i just didn't want you to be here.
and now you're not.
you don't get to treat people like shit then leave. you don't get to ruin me and make me miserable and then just dissapear.
i will regret writing this rylee, i will regret saying all of these things because as much as i hate what you did to me i love you and it hurts me to know that you will never appear on my screen again, you won't send me a bitchy text. you won't tell me i look good in a t-shirt.
you were a beautiful person with an ugly heart. you were an beautiful person with the soul of the devil. you were an angel from hell, enjoy it up there.
signing off.
