January 14,2015
I read the note. It made me heartbroken. I want to die. Why can't I just die? The note is horrible. Tenth one I got this week.
"Go kill yourself. Nobody loves you. You an ugly slut. Just stop trying. We won't cry."
xoxoxo, Someone that hates you!
I cried. Nobody loved me. I have no friends. No family. I just want to die. But my Mom wouldnt want me to die. I stay alive for her. I miss her so much. My dad is a drunk so I left him and moved to Cali. I love it here.
Lets stop talking about the good things.
I grabbed my laptop and pressed record on the record button. I record every day when i do my cutting. When I cut, I escape the world for a good five minutes. It feels good.
I said,"Its Sarah again. I got another note saying I'm a ugly slut and that nobody loves me. I love people so much!"
Sarcasm strikes again!
"I'm going to put three cuts in my legs and arms. I am doing this because that is the amount of notes I got today."
i cut three slots in my legs and arms.
one.
two.
three.
I'm done.
I stopped the recording and went slean up the cuts. I dont care if I hurt. I dont mind.
I just wish i had a better life.
AN// Hey guys! Its Paighton again. I had writers block for the other story, so I deleted it. This story is going to be so much better! Hope you enjoyed!
XOXO,Paighton
