i always say that i wanna be on good terms with everybody. but this time, i don't wanna be on good terms with anyone. i don't wanna pretend like everything's okay when it's not. i don't wanna sugarcoat the bullshit so i seem "nice". i wanna be on terms that are in the way they really deserve to be. i'm not even sorry if me taking care of myself upsets you, just because you expected me to give you more. i don't even wanna change your opinion of me when you call me selfish for that. apparently, strangers can just walk into your life and call themselves your friends, when they can't even be happy for you when you're happy, yet still expect you to make them happy. apparently, these strangers that call themselves your friends have the nerve to tell you that you changed just because you're doing better. apparently, they tell you that you don't care anymore because you couldn't be the same weak, miserable person in desperate need of them. i'm not sorry if you ever thought i wasn't a good friend to you for that. but you know what i'm really sorry for? i'm sorry for you if you actually think that's what friendship is.
