Hi...I don't even know what to say so I'm probably just gonna ramble until I get my point across. I've been going through a really rough time recently and it probably seems stupid that me being a 14 year old girl is actually upset but I am. I have been upset for months. I was a mess even before you came in the fall...but I don't know it felt like me and you really connected when we spent that day together. It felt like I finally had someone that I could talk to no matter what and I didn't have to worry how they would react because I could trust them. And you even told me that when I needed someone to talk to that I could talk to you. Well now it feels like everything is just a mess. It feels like everything has just been falling into pieces. I keep losing people and I wish I could talk to someone about it but now it feels like I have no one to talk to about it. I mean yeah we didn't talk that much but I mean I thought I would've been able to talk to you on Easter. I don't think you understand how much you mean to me. When you come down for that week in the summer it makes me so happy. I literally count down the days till I see you. And I hug you so much bc I know that I won't be able to see you for almost a whole year and really the only thing that I regret is that when I said goodbye to you in the fall I thought to myself *dont be sad you'll see him in another 6 months* and now I'm probably not even gonna get that. I only see you once or twice a year but when I see you I feel so close to you. And now I don't even get that for a day. Over the summer you're all I look forward to. You don't understand. And especially this year. Nothing is going right but I would think *hey at least I get to see uncle jimmy* but no. Now I don't even get that. And you know what through it all...I don't care how much you ignore me I will still miss you just as much as I miss you every year. Probably more. I don't know maybe you don't realize how much you mean to people bc you mean so much to me and it makes me so mad to think that you don't know how much you have helped me. Well now you know.
