When will i die?

Young days

When I was six I was pushed down the stairs by my uncle then I was forced to make out with my cousin, Ever since that we always avoid each other.my name is Savana and I fucking hate my life. I rember at the age 13 being forced to deepthroat my other dad's penis and I was adopted...but it was 8th grade when I ran away and tried to kill myself it never happened.  I miss my original family but they had to put me up because I could not live with my aunt or grandma after the incident..

It happened when I was in 4th grade and I was tall slim with long black hair and beautiful blue eyes and earings I took care of myself but I was home when there were loud gun shots .and my mother and father shoved me and my brother down in the basement and I heard the screams and 4 gun shots ran out. Fear flooded my body and I felt my hands grow numb as I look around for my brother who was crying..my brother never cried so that mad me cry as I ran into his arms. Then the basement door was being beat on and my brother aka Caleb pushed me out the window and an old man saw me but he was all bloody and reaching for a first aid kit that was opened...I helped Caleb out and we ran together into the woods untill we found a local 7 eleven. But after that I never saw my parents again. I cryed my eyes out as the poilce explained what happened I felt my vision go blurry and just like that my life became a living hell......