It May 2018
Simon is again on the road this time in LA he sopose to get his star on Hollywood walk of fame next week and the relization makes him remember why is the real reason for him to get this honour.
It's not the fact he has the rights for Got Talent success golaby and in USA or even the fact he formed the biggest boyband of modetn times - it because who he achived all of this.
The person who responsible to all of this it's not him or even is bussness parteners.
It the only one woman that probably won't be there at the event and it's sad.
"You must let her go, move on, let her move on"
That's what Tony his brother told him to do four years ago when Eric was born.
"But how I should do it?"
Simon asks with the phone in his hand.
"Do you want the only person in this world that you really love more then yourself, instead of Eric to live misrable life while you are in the other part of the world living your best life with your new family?"
Simon looks straight and deep in his brother eyes.
"I can't, she is my only inspirtion and you know that"
"How long you think she can keep seeing you with Lauren while Lauren is all over you, ha?"
"It will end as soon The X Factor 2014 ends"
"Really? How the hell your pr shitheads will suddenly love her and support your relationship?
"So what should I do call her and tell her what? Look I love you but we are over because I have a son now and you are part of my past? I can't tell her that"
"But that what you should do...Let her go... At least till Eric will grown up a little bit and you can sand Lauren back to New York"
"I totally forgot about Lauran"
Paula ringtone starts to ring
"How great! How should I answer that now if I still don't know what to say to her"
"I will"
Tony takes the phone from Simon's hand and answer the call.
'Hi Si, I am so happy for you, did you call him Eric like you told me you want to call your future son back in the day?"
Tony was little bit in shock when he realized Simon told Paula the name he wanted for his son long before he had one.
"Oh, slow down Dear, the coward is next to me he even not been at the labour room with her"
"I am not surprised even a bit I have witnessed my two nieces brith and my sister's husband couldn't even get in he was too overwhelmed"
Now Simon took the phone and said with little bit of annoyed tune.
"I wasn't overwhelmed I just didn't felt part of this because it not the way I wanted to have my son"
"But life happens and we sometimes have to go with it and let go..."
"What you mean for let go Paula?"
"You know what I mean, sometimes the time comes when you should let go even if you don't want to"
"Right now I need you the most"
"No Simon, you have Lauren and your family I am not part of it anymore you are not even not working in America anymore we don't have any logic reason to keep the thing we have going"
"But can you for once explain what we have?"
"Had, Simon we had, now it's time to move on, grow up, no fun games, real life"
"Fun games? That's what we had?"
"Suddenly when you have to grow up you want to admit to me it was everything but not a game? You missed your chance mister"
'You remember when we promise to leave idol together"
"I kept my promise"
"No! You don't, our promise was and I quote "Leave the show together and never leave each others's side"
"Oh well, you defantly left my side when you made it clear to me that we are done, remember how you thrown me out of your hotel room a year ago when you met someone else and you told me and I quote: "Paula get out of here, get out of my life too" but for as much stupid as I am I waited till this namelass woman left and cried my eyes to you because I love you so much, me and John are just friends, please believe me"
"It not the same thing Paula"
'"It's not the same thing, not the same THING? What you want to play family with Lauren in London and then come to me to have a night of pleasure once in a while, I am not your sex toy god and if you want to know John makes love to me something your handrands of dollars can't do even if Lauren wants it so much"
"I love you... Paula darling please don't hang up like that"
"You know it's beautiful way to love me yet to get another woman pregnant and give the baby the name that I CHOSED for the baby I wanted to share with YOU and them be coward enough and let your brother to answer the phone when I call"
"You don't get it, do you? I have been standing here in this waiting room for almost 24 HOURS didn't sleep for a second because I searched for the words I will tell you when I can but I couldn't call you cause I know that the words I would tell you the words are rather die then say them, I can't tell you to let me go, to tell you I am legging go, because you are the only person in this mad world that I rather loss everting them let go of"
"You just saying it because I am the last part of your life before you got her pregnant..."
"You are not part of my life... You are all of it!"
"I am not, I never was"
"You have been since you let me in and you will always be and you know it"
"Because of it I am setting you free, I set both of us free, you should raise Eric with your family, raise him to be a great man like his father"
"Great man can fight for the woman he desperately loves but I am not that"
"Man up Simon, don't worry I will come to his Bar Mitzvah to see how great man you raised"
"No! You can't leave me like that! No! No! No!"
Simon reliving this moment like a that hunts him every night since then...
