One shots [ Diza ]

trapped.

LIZAS POV:

My heart is beating so fast, i can hear it, this cant be true, iv ruined my life, all my plans, all the time invested, yesterday was so different, i could see the next 4 years laid out to perfectly, today i cant see the next moment, i just wanted to stop, breathe, just breathe, i think to myself as i get out of my car and wall towards the front door of the house iv grown up
in, slowly opening the door, leading me to the dining room were my mom was located, i walk an she embraces me into a big hug, i let off a fake smile, how do i even look at them, i let them down, their going to know the instant they look at me, their going to know somethings wrong, deep breath, just act like everythings ok, i say to myself as i walk into the living room with the sight of my dad, he's going to be so disappointed, he's always calling me his little girl, thats gone, he will never see me like that again. just dont look at him, no eye contact. i think to myself during the hug my dad embraced me into, as i have a flash back to me being a little girl, with my dad, running around in the back yard, playing with the trees, me counting to run away from him, until he finally catches me, picking me up and holding me, im pulled out of my thoughts by letting go of our hug, walking to my room, and seeing the polaroids of Me and my boyfriend, friends, and family, hanging from a string on my wall, as i lay down onto my bed, i look to the other side of my room and see my old dance dress, out of all the dresses, i always liked this one, i look  around and see more pictures of me in my dance dresses, when i enjoyed life as a teen, i look at my desk, and see my notebook, and my dancing medals dangling from the wall above it, none of this matters anymore, the hours of lessons, practice, awards, all for nothing, its over, i never thought it would happen to me, this cant be happening, i cuddle to my pillow letting out sobs

the next dat

i see him, at school, us having no care into the world, he dosent know, and i hate him for not knowing, i wann go back to what it was liked before i knew, i wanna still believe in our future, but im stuck in this nightmare, how am i even going to tell him, i think of us only 3 months ago, it was better then

flashback of 3 months ago

i see him, he walks into the breakfast diner, immediately going and patting his friends on the back, as they shake hands, i glance over at him, and then countinue to talk to my friends, i glance back over at him but that time he noticed, and glanced back, he kept on glancing, until eventually he leaves his friends,walking over to the table im sitting at, he takes a seat and we begin to chat

end of flashback

its was nothing i could handle, we really liked each other, there was something I hadnt felt before, in that moment it felt real and it felt right, you should have seen it, i knew better i've been taught better fully i could go back, i remember when i found out about it

flashback

i walk into the bathroom with my friend Kristen, sit my bag down and take the box out, starting at it, womdering if i should take it or not, i look at kristen signaling for her to leave, she leaves and stands on the other side of the door, as i stare at the box, but i take it, and after 5 minutes of waiting i call her back in, when she walks in im starring at the test, positive , i start crying while looking at it, kristen looks up and smiles, shes happy but im terrified,she realizes how panicked i am and starts crying in sync with me

end of flashback

why should i feel guilty it's my body, my life, and just a bunch of self, but right now im outside of the store with kristen, when she comes back she hands me the bag, i take the small box out the read "plan B one-step" i flip the box over and it reads " one tablet one step." "the sooner you take it, the more effective it will be" "Take as soon as possible within 72 hours (3 days) after unprotected sex" "will not harm an existing pregnancy" shit, i curse to myself